In A Perfect World, One We'll Never Know...

Part 80

Gerard's P.O.V

I sat in the kitchen. Jaid told me not to buy anything to drink and just to pretend I'm going. She wanted me to give her a chance to talk with Mikey.

"How is he?" I asked her when she walked into the kitchen.

"He seemed better when I left. You know, he'll have to stay here and it will be hard dealing with Shira and him and taking care of the wedding." Jaid said. I looked at her and wrinkled his forehead.

"Why can't one of them stay at Frank's house?" I asked her.

"Because Mikey and Frank had a fight, sort of, and Mikey isn't ready to talk with Frank yet and Shira is mad at Frank for kissing Mikey because Mikey was with her and because Frank was with Erik, it's like a double cheating." Jaid explained.

"Oh… I see…" I said and nodded.

"But we do need to do something about it…" she said and sat next to me. I looked at her and put my hand under her chin. She turned her head to me and I leaned and kissed her softly on the lips.

"Hi! I have and idea!" she said and looked at me with a huge smile.

I can't believe she's thinking about that when were kissing! Damn!

I put on my disappointed look, so she'll know what I'm feeling.

"Why won't we continue this upstairs, say… in the bedroom?" she said and got up. I smiled a huge smile and got up too. She took my hand and led me upstairs.

 

Frank's P.O.V

I felt much better after I called Jaid and made sure Mikey's there. But atill, I felt bed, I was worried and I was very lonely now. I walked around the house and tried to take my mind off of everything that happened lately.

I collapsed on the couch and stared at the TV. The TV was off but I didn't have anything else to do but to stare at it. I sat there for a while before I made a decision.

I got up, took the keys for the car and left the house.

I drove to the hospital and parked the car outside. I kept sitting in the car for a while before I had the courage to go out of it. The same thing happened to me again outside of Erik's room. I walked back and forth in front of the door.

"Frank, I can see you through the glass of the door, will you come in already?! You're making me feel dizzy and that's not good in my condition." Erik said from inside the room. I froze as soon as I heard his voice. He sounded like himself only a little… wicker.

I opened the door and walked slowly into the room. I was afraid to look at Erik, I feared what I'll see will scare me too much, or worse- gross me out. Erik felt it.

"Frank Iero, would you look at me? I'm sure it won't kill you." he said, half laughing.

I sat beside his bed but I still couldn't look at him.

"Frank, please…" he said quietly. I really did try to turn my head and look at him. But I just couldn't.

"Frankie, you finally came to visit me, what's up with you?"

What the scares you, you fucking cowered?! He's the same guy you love more then anything and nothing happened to him! The only thing that's different about him is his diet, so stupid being such a jerk!

But it's not because of that, you know it's not because of that… you know what you should tell him and you're afraid of his reaction, that's the problem...

"Fuck it, Frank! Why did you come here if you wouldn't look at me, if you don't want to look at me?! You're just making life harder for both of us." Erik said and I could hear him turning his back to me.

"Erik…" I said quietly. He didn't hear me. "Erik…" I said again, a little louder this time.

"What?" he said angrily.

"I need to tell you something." I said and finally raised my head. His wide back was turned to me. I couldn't see his face but I could hear him crying. He slowly turned to me and looked into my eyes. He looked tired and his stomach was kinda swollen.

"I… I…" it was so hard!

"You can tell me Frank, I'll love you, no matter what." Erik said quietly. I knew he meant that and I knew that if I'll tell he will still love me but it will only make it harder for him to forgive me.

'I… I cheated on you…" I said quietly. I felt my eyes filling up with tears and I forced myself to look at Erik's shocked face. When he finally talked there was something so reasonable in his voice that made me shocked.

"So… that's why you didn't come to visit me." He said. He looked at his legs so I couldn't really see his eyes or his expression.

I wiped the tears from my eyes.

"I'm so so sorry!" I said.

"Who was the lucky guy?" he asked. I looked at him in complete shock.

"What?" that was my first reaction. He looked up, straight to my eyes and asked again.

"Who was the freaking lucky guy you cheated on me with?"

"It was… it was Mikey." I finally said.

"Mikey? Again? Aren't you guys tired of whole these drama you're causing every one?" he said. I knew he didn't think of Shira right now but it made me think of her and that made me feel even worse.

"I'm sorry Erik! There is no way I could make you understand how sorry I am!" I said defensively.

"I forgive you, Frank." He said and looked at me calmly. I stopped crying and just looked at him. I wasn't ready for that reaction.

"I'm just glad you could tell me that now and not in years from now. I guess in ended today?" He said in an asking look.

"Yes, and please don't be mad at Mikey." I said.

"I can't promise you that." He said and looked forward. "you see, the difference between you and Mikey is that I love you more then anything in my life and your too important for me to just stop being with you. But Mikey, he hurt me with this in more the that- he hurt my sister too many times for me to forgive or just stop being mad at him. I won't kill him if you'll ask really nicely." He said and smiled to me. I couldn't help my self and I just fell on him and started kissing him and hugging him.

"Frank, your hurting me!" he said, "Aw! Needles, stuck in me, you know!"

I backed off and looked at him grinning. He smiled his big, gorgeous smile to me.

"It's good to have you back, Frankie." He said. I put my hand on his head and played with my fingers through his hair.

"Were you thinking of me when you were with him?" he asked quietly after couple of moments of silence. I looked at him, kinda surprised. He looked into my eyes and suddenly smiled.

"You know what- forget that I asked that, I shouldn't have asked that." He said, still smiling.

"No, no, I actually did think about you but I was just a little surprised that you asked that." I said.

 

Erik's P.O.V

I was in great pain but I couldn't show it to Frankie. He felt guilty about cheating on me while I'm kinda sick and I didn't want him to feel worse.

Actually the pain was also mentally. I really was angry and upset at Frankie but like I told him, I love him too damn much to start acting like a little child and stop talking to him, or something like that. The thing that really bothered me was Mikey. Shira is probably so broken right now and I have no way of being there for her.

"How's Shira?" I asked Frank. He looked surprised.

"She didn't come to visit you?" he asked.

"No, and I understand why now." I could see the guilt in his eyes. I put my hand on his hand and smiled an encouraging smile. He smiled a sad smile back to me.

"I don't know, I don't think she'd like to see me right now." He said and the smile disappeared from his face.

"Okay… we'll have to fix that, won't we?" I said and looked straight into his eyes. He nodded in approval.

Part 79

Shira's P.O.V

I lay on my room, on the bed and looked at the ceiling. I did it a lot lately. I had nothing better to do which is pretty sad. On one of the times I did it Jaid came in and talked for ages about that I need to start dating with guys to forget Mikey, and if I don't want to forget him I need to start dating to get him joules. The point of this conversation, if you can call it conversation since only Jaid was talking and I just kept looking at the ceiling, well, the point of it was that I need to start dating again.

Anyway this time I sat like that for about 2 hour before someone knocked on the door and since I didn't answer Adam came in.

"Hi, would you like to go out on a date with me tonight?" he asked me.

I sat up and looked at him, confused. I didn't think I heard him well. "Could you repeat that?" I said quiety.

"Do you wanna go see a movie or go out for a dinner with me tonight? Unless you have a better idea for a date." He said.

I was still shocked. I looked at him and opened and closed my mouth couple of times before I had an idea of what to say.

"Like a date-date?" I said. I sounded so dumb!

"Yes, a date-date if that's what you call it." He said and smiled. He looked amused.

"Oh… okay, sure." I said and smiled.

"Great, so I'll meet you outside in an hour, okay?" He said. I nodded and he smiled to me and left the room. I couldn't help but smile a huge smile. Adam was cute, and pretty hot, and having someone ask you out is such a complement.

I almost ran to my closet and started looking for something nice to wear. Then Jaid walked in.

"I thought I'll find you staring at the ceiling again. What are you looking for?" she asked and sat on the bed.

"Adam just asked me out on a date. Help me find something to wear." I said, still searching in the closet.

"He seems like a nice guy, good for you."

 

Jaid's P.O.V

"He seems like a nice guy, good for you." I said and smiled. Good thing Shira had her back to me cause I couldn't help myself but to smile a big smile. Shira didn't even suspect our plan.

"So- are you going to help me find something to wear or not?!" Shira asked and turned around. I erased the smile from my face quickly and looked at her. I guess I wondered too much.

I got up and helped her pick up an outfit. When we finally found something she went to the shower and I got out and went to the kitchen. Gerard sat there and drank coffee. He looked bothered by something. He gazed above his cup and looked at some, not so specific, point in the well. I learned to know that look.

"Hi, babe." I said and walked to tea pot to make me some tea. When I passed behind him I riffed my hand on his shoulders. I knew it was the only way to really get his attention, or he'll just keep staring at the wall.

"Oh, what? Hi honey." He said and put the cup on the table, turning to me. I smiled to him calmly and turned around to pour me some tea.

"What were you thinking about?" I asked him. He turned his head and leaned it on his arms, putting his elbows on the table.

"I just…" he sighed, "I know it will end bad for someone, someone will end up crying, and I'm not talking about Shira's tears of joy." He said. I turned around and looked at him. Gerard was a smart man in a disguise of a silly boy. He got back to staring at the well but this time he started in order to focus his thought and not cause he's focused only in his thought.

I sat next to him holding my cup in one hand and putting the other on his head, petting it gently.

"I mean- must we do this to them? Maybe they're just not meant to be together." He said, raising his head and looking into my eyes. I felt my heart trying to gallop through my chest toward him. I loved this guy so much. I leaned and kissed him softly on the lips.

"Maybe you're right but we're still allowed to try things out." I said. Suddenly we heard the door open. We both looked to the entrance of the kitchen. To our surprise Mikey walked in. I jumped to my feet.

He'll ruin our plan! What the hell is he doing here?!

Gerard held my hand firmly. He knew what went through my mind.

"Mikey, what are you doing here?" Gerard asked him in a strong voice. I could hear how hard it is to him to talk like that to his brother and how hard it is for him to deal with all the mixed feelings he felt. He was angry and disappointed from Mikey and in the same time he loved him very much and missed him.

"I… I came to talk to Shira. Is she here?" he said. He didn't looking at me at all. he knew were both mad at him but he knew Gerard will still forgive him in a while. But he didn't dare to look into Gerard's eyes yet either.

"She's here-" Gerard started saying.

"But I don't think she'd like to talk to you," I cut Gerard's sentence cause I couldn't hold myself anymore. "You see- she's about to go out on a date."

I could see his eyes open wide in surprise. Gerard pressed my hand hard. I closed my mouth firmly to deal with the pain.

 

Mikey's P.O.V

I made myself not look at Jaid so far but I couldn't help myself anymore and I looked at her. I felt inside of me a mixture of feelings. I was surprised, sad, angry, joules but the thing that surprised me the most was that I was frightened.

"You can go now." Jaid said. Her voice was colder then ice. I walked backward and bumped into someone. At first I feared it is Shira but then I realized that it was way taller and wider to be Shira. I turned around and opened my eyes wide in surprise. Adam stood in front of me and smile his big smile.

"Hi Mikey, what's up?" he asked.

"I'm okay. What are you doing here?" I asked.

"I… came to Gerard and Jaid's wedding." He said.

"Oh… I didn't think of that… how is Simo-" I started.

"We don't talk about him. It ended up pretty ugly." He said.
"Oh…" I said. "Anyway- I was on my way out so… I'll see when I'll see you." I said. Adam turned his head and looked at something on the staircase. He smiled and looked excited. I turned my head to see what he's looking at and found myself once again surprised, only the thousands time today.

On the bottom of the staircase stood Shira. Her hair was collected in a very nice way that really complimented her face. She wore a nice little dress in light blue and she smiled to Adam a big smile. She didn't notice me yet, I think. I looked at Adam and suddenly noticed that he's pretty dressed up. I jumped my eyes for Shira to Adam couple of times and then looked at Shira and only at Shira. She was beautiful. I felt like a certain green thingy waking up inside of me and starting to growl.

"Hello Mikey." Shira said and finally looked at me, "what are you doing here?" she asked calmly. Something in the way she said that, in the way she talked to me made the green thingy weep in agony.

"I wanted to talk with you but I see you're busy so maybe I'll…" my voice faded. For a second I could see Shira's eyes turning bright but then she looked away and I looked down.

"Let's go, Adam." Shira said after a minute of silence. He nodded and they left. I stood there for a while before to my I felt Gerard wrapping his hands around me. I felt like a little kid again- every time our parents thought we went to our room and Gerard hugged me tight.

We stood there for few minutes and then to my surprise Jaid joined our hug.

"You can stay here tonight." She whispered in my ear. I felt the tears that gathered in my eyes this entire day start streaming out and I started weeping between both of them.

The next thing I remember was Jaid sitting next to me. I lay on my bed with my eyes closed. Gerard went to buy something to drink. Gerard usually didn't like the idea of drinking but he knew to value it.

"You know," Jaid said quietly, "she loves you very much. She got a new habit since you left- she's laying on your bed and staring at the ceiling. She does it every day."

I looked at her. She looked at me and smiled a little smile. The coldness in her eyes disappeared and now her eyes had sadness in them.

"I really did act like a jerk, haven't I?" I said.

"Yes you did, darling." She said and smiled. I smiled too. I knew she loves acting like our mother but I also knew that she didn't like when sometimes we forgot she's not.

"I'm back." We heard Gerard from downstairs. Jaid got up and started walking towards the door. When she got there she turned around to me.

"You don't need this drink. Try and sleep, the days ahead of us are going to be tough for you." she said got out of the room and closed the door.

I know it's been long but I have lots of things to tell you... just read...

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Part 78

Linda's P.O.V

My mother was asleep so I put all the kids into beds on my own.

I sat in the living room with a cup of tea. The oldest girl, Shelly, came and sat by me.

"What are you doing here? Why aren't you asleep?" I asked her.

"I can't sleep." She said quietly.

"So you can stay with me for awhile."

We sat like that, quietly, for a while. I could feel she has something on her mind, something she wants to say.

"So you're my big sister?" she finally asked.

"Yes." I whispered.

"That's weird..." she mumbled. I nodded. I didn't know what to say. What was I suppose to say?

 

Frank's P.O.V

"I never showered with anyone before! Well, maybe when I was little with Gerard... but it wasn't like this! This was fun!" Mikey said after we got dressed up and sat on the bed.

"Well... I'm... uh... glad to hear you enjoyed it..." I mumbled. I didn't know what to say. It was... relieving, this shower, but it was wrong! Mikey was straight and he was just going through a faze and I, I had a boyfriend, so what if he's in the hospital and I didn't have any action since... a long time.

"Hi, could I sleep with you tonight? I mean, it's kinda silly to ask since we, you know, but just to be polite..."

I looked at him. This has gone too far.

"Look, Mikey, it's been really fun and nice but it's just so not right, or true, actually. I think you should get back to Shira, or at least back to your home." I said without looking to his eyes. I suddenly found out that our floor is very interesting.

"Oh... so you didn't feel what I felt... I get it, you should of said it earlier." I heard him say quietly.

"You didn't feel anything!" I said and looked at him, "You think you felt something when actually all you felt was your orgasm!"

Mikey looked at me shocked. I suddenly understood that I'm standing and that I kinda yelled the last part.

"Look, this isn't real, I really love you, I really really do, but as a friend, my best friend, and that's the way I want it to stay." I walked toward him, "There's something in the way you touched me that made me realize that you're straight, you always were and you always will be. You touched me as if I was a girl, I know that, I used to sleep with girls, you know. Mikey- I'm doing this for both of us, for the best of things. You need to go." I said and put my hand on his shoulder. He looked down, he seemed puzzled.

"Look, I need to... think a little. I'll call you when I can talk to you again." He said and left the room.

I knew there is no point at trying to talk to him, Guys are so annoying!

 

Shira's P.O.V

"Wow, you really know everyone for a really long time!" I said. Adam smiled a little smile and pulled his shoulders up.

"I told you- Gerard and I practically grew on each other, all our first things happened together… well, almost all or first things." He said and smiled. I couldn't help but to start laughing.

 

Mikey's P.O.V

I never thought the day will come when I'll be dumped… by a guy! If someone told me in the beginning of school year everything that we'll happen to me I would probably say there is no way, that he is crazy.

I couldn't go to my home because I knew Gerard and Jaid will be mad at me, plus-Shira is there. So I went to the park. I sat down on one of the benches and started thinking. I felt like there was a huge empty space inside my heart. It's been there for a while already. I felt a desperate need to talk to someone.

I put my hand into my pocket and looked for the little bag. It wasn’t there. I started stressing out.

I can't loose it! If anyone finds it I'm doomed! What will Frank think if he'll find it? Or what if I dropped it on the way over here and the police saw that and they're after me? What if they'll take me to jail? Or worse- what if Shira will find out?

And then I realized something. I needed to talk to Shira. She's the only one I felt like I can talk to. Even now when we broke up. I had to make her talk to me.

I got up and started walking towards the exit from the park and then toward our house. At some point I started running. I felt an argent need to talk to her Shira.

 

Gerard's P.O.V

I sat in the living room and did… well, nothing, when Adam walked in.

"Hi, what's up with your stupid baby brother? It's totally not like him to act like that to a girl, especially if she's gentle like Shira." He said and sat next to me.

"To be honest- I have no freaking idea. He really did act kinda off lately." I answered.

"Talking about Mikey?" Jaid walked into the living room and sait on my lap. "Something weird is up with him lately."

"As much as I remember he was always such s gentlemen around ladies what's up with that?" Adam asked us.

"Shira and Mikey has been through a lot in the past year. Maybe that got something to do with it." Jaid said. I nodded in approval.

"You think he still loves Shira and is just through some sort of a faze? Cause if so I think I know how to get him back to his senses." Adam suggested.

"Maybe." I said. "But I'm not sure about it… I mean, I don't know…"

"What Gerard is trying to say is that he's not sure if we should get involved with it." Jaid explained.

"Oh… and what do you think?" Adam asked her.

"I think something should be done and fast. Almost anything will do."

"Okay then. Want to hear what I was thinking?" he asked and Jaid nodded. The rest of the afternoon was spent planning what were gonna do. Just for the record- I didn't want to be part of that "were gonna do" thingy.

IF YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?

So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button

 

 

Opening Credits:

I Am Fred Astaire- Taking Back Sunday

Waking Up:

G.I..N.A.S.F.S- Fall Out Boy

First Day At School:

Ghost Man On Third- Taking Back Sudnay

Falling In Love:

I Want To Hold Your Hand (cover)- T.V. Carpio

Fight Song:

Get The Party Started- Pink

Break up song:

The Only Difference Between Martyrdom And Suicide Is Press Coverage- Panic at the Disco

Prom:

Time To Dance- Panic at the Disco

Birthday:

U + Ur Hand- Pink

Last Day of School:

Jinx- Green Day

Life's Ok:

Trouble- Pink

Mental Breakdown:

21st Century- Red Hot Chili Peppers

Driving Song:

A Well Respected Man- Unknown

Flashback:

Astro Zombies (cover)- My Chemical Romance

Get Back Together:

So Much I- Red Hot Chili Peppers

Wedding:

Cool- Gwen Stefani

Birth of Child:

Bones- Radiohead

Final Battle:

Emergency- Paramore

Death Scene:

Drowning Lessons- My Chemical Romance

Funeral Song:

Under Pressure- David Bowie & Queen

End Credits:

But It's Better If You Do- Panic at the Disco

Part 77

Mikey’s P.O.V

I walked in to the living room and found Frankie on the couch. I didn’t really see him cause he was covered in blanket but I knew it was him cause he moved a lot.

“What are you doing?” I asked.

“Jesus, Mikey!” he said and jumped up. “You scared the shit out of me!”

“What did you do?” I asked and looked at him. His hands were still under the blanket.

“Nothing.” He mumbled and looked down. His cheeks were red with blush.

“Were you masturbating?” I asked in repulse.

“Mikey! Ewwww! That is none of your business!” he cried.

I sat on the couch beside him.

“You know, it’s perfectly normal, you are a guy and you didn’t really have sex for a while so…” I said. Frank nodded slowly. I looked at him. He had nice lips, kinda feminine.

I leaned forward and looked into his eyes.

“What are you doing?” he asked. I moved closer to him and kissed him slowly, tenderly. Frank wrapped his hands around my neck and pulled me closer to him. I gave in to his will. I was completely his.

Frank pulled my shirt over my head and kissed my neck. Then he started unzipping my pants. I put my hand on his.

“What?” he asked quietly.

“I just… I’ve never been with a guy before…” I said.

“That’s okay, trust me.” Frank said and got back to kissing my neck.

“Frank…” I mumbled. Frank looked at me.

“Don’t worry, I’ll be gentle.” He said and took my pants off.

I gave in.

 

Frank’s P.O.V

That felt good, so so good!

But still, a part of me regretted it. I just slept with my best friend, and not the innocent kind of slept.

I sat up. For the last 15 minutes I laid awake beside Mikey. Mikey and I fell asleep right after.

“What’s up?” I heard him mumbling. I looked at him. He smiled and he looked pretty sleepy.

“I’m… I’m just… it was a lot of fun but… I really enjoyed it... what I’m trying to say is…” I tried to say.

“You regret it?” he asked quietly and sat up.

“A little, but just cause you’re my best friend!” I explained.

“That’s okay. It was pretty weird for me too- being with a guy and my best friend…” his voice slowly faded as if he just realized what he had done.

“It was fun though.” I said. He smiled slowly.

“Do you miss Erik?” he asked after few minutes of silence.

“I don’t know, maybe… do you miss Shira?” he didn’t answer.

“Do you still want me to stay here?” Mikey asked me after few minutes of silence.

“Yes.” I said in a way that he couldn’t have any doubts about it.

We sat by each other for another 15 minutes.

“You can bring girls to here if you’d like to. I mean, I know what’s a guy’s needs and, well…” my voice slowly faded.

“That’s okay but thanks anyway.” He said. I smiled and got up.

“I’m gonna take a shower.” I said and went upstairs. I turned the water on and got under the stream of hot water.

I didn’t hear the door open and I noticed Mikey got in only when he stood behind me with his hands on my waist.

 

Gerard’s P.O.V

I went downstairs to make dinner cause Jaid was asleep and I wanted to surprise her.

When I passed by the entrance to the living room I heard voices talking. I walked in and saw Adam and Shira sitting on the couch and talking. Shira seemed happy.

“Hello Adam.” I said. They both turned around to look at me.

“Gee! What’s up? I thought you were asleep.” Adam said.

“I was. What are you doing here?” I asked and sat beside him.

"I was in town and I thought it will be nice to drop by and see you. Shira was kind enough to open the door for me and we sat and talked." Adam said. I smiled. It was so like him, he was always a success with the ladies, not like me, which is a shame since he's...

"Anyway- Shira told me Frank got out, finally, and Mikey became a jerk." Adam cut my thoughts.

"Finally? What do you mean 'finally'?" I asked him.

"It was obvious to me long ago..." Adam said.

"And I understand that Shira told you of the recent events." I said and looked at Shira with a not-so-pleased look. She pulled her shoulders up.

"I asked her and I guess she held it inside pretty tight till now and it just came out, you shouldn't be mad at her. Maybe all she needed was some strange stranger to talk to." Adam said and smiled to Shira. Shira seem to be very grateful for his answer.

"Okay, you won. Do you two want dinner?" I asked and got up.

"Yeah, why not, that will be very nice..." Adam said. I smiled and left them.

Shira seem to like my old pal.

 

Jaid's P.O.V

I got up and went to take a shower. I got dressed and went downstairs. I heard voices from the kitchen so I went there.

"Hi baby, you came right on time, we were just about to eat dinner." Gerard said. He stood in the kitchen and Shira sat next to the tabled by some other guy.

"Who's this?" the guy asked Shira.

"Oh, right, silly me." Gerard said. "Adam- this is my fiancé, Jaid. Jaid- this is my very good friend, Adam."

"Fiancé? You didn't mention that." Adam said.

"Yeah, I know that now... well, we're getting married in 2 weeks and you're invited." Gerard said. I was surprised but I could see on his face that he really wanted Adam to come and didn't just say it to be polite.

"Are you sitting with us?" Shira asked. She seemed in better mood then before. I nodded.

Dinner was nice.

Part 76

Frank's P.O.V

I got up next morning with an awful headache. I went, half asleep, to the bathroom to wash my face and brush my teeth. I opened the door slowly.

"Frank! You could knock, you know!" Mikey yelled at me. I closed the door fast. Mikey was in the middle of his shower.

"Sorry Mikey!" I called loudly and went to the kitchen to deal with my headache.

I took a couple of aspirin with a cup of coffee. I sat in the kitchen with my eyes closed and rubbed my forehead.

"I'm out!" Mikey yelled from upstairs. I jumped.

"What?" I asked, confused.

"I'm out of the shower." Mikey answered. I calmed down and went to the bathroom. I washed my face and looked in the mirror.

"You shouldn't drink, Frank Iero! You can't handle it well at all!" I told myself and took my clothes off. I took a long hot shower. I enjoy hot showers so much! It always makes me feel better.

I went out of the shower and almost left the bathroom without my towel. Yes, I know, kinky, but when it was only Erik and I, I liked walking around naked in the house. Erik used to say he hates it cause it makes him think naughty thoughts. I did it on purpose after he told me that.

Anyway, I opened the door and closed it back quickly. I wrapped the towel around my waist and left the bathroom.

"You want breakfast?" Mikey asked from downstairs.

"Yes, thank you." I answered and walked into my room. I dressed up and went to the kitchen.

Mikey was in the kitchen and the table was set. He made pancakes. I love pancakes!

"Hungry? Cause there's a lot to eat." Mikey said and smiled. I nodded. "So sit down." He said with a big smile on his face.

I sat next to the table and put a couple of pancakes on my plate and started stuffing them into my mouth.

"You eat as if you didn't eat for ages!" Mikey said and laughed.

"I didn't eat pancakes for a really long time." I answered but all you could here was something like I nide t pakes or welly ong tim.

"You shouldn't eat with your mouth full." Mikey said and laughed even louder.

 

Linda's P.O.V

I don't know why but I couldn't move. I sat there, in front of my mother that spilled everything that happened.

"Your father was 15 years older then me. He wanted kids already and I was so madly in love with him." She said and blew her nose. I looked at her. I was shocked by her story.

“He told me he’ll leave me if I won’t have his baby. I loved him more then anything so I had you. The birth was hard and almost left me sterile. I must admit that I was very happy when I first saw you- my daughter, my future, my one true love.” I smiled. After everything we’ve been through together and apart, her eyes sparked when she talked about me as a baby.

“You were the most beautiful baby I have ever seen.” She said in a soft voice. “You became my entire world and that bothered your father. Now that he had a child he wanted a wife- a woman that will do everything he want, when he wants it. I refused to do most things cause I was busy taking care of you.” Her voice was now stiff and cold. I looked at her but she looked away. The pain was back in her eyes.

“He started biting me every time I didn’t agree to do something he wanted me to do. Later, when I refused to sleep with him he started raping me. Now I started getting depressed- my family left me and wouldn’t talk to me cause I married without their permission, my husband was awful to me and my daughter cried every time she saw me cause my face was twisted with big blue marks.” My mother had tears in her eyes again. I reached my hand and petted her back. She leaned forward and let the tears burst. Her body was all shaking and she cried loudly.

 

Shira’s P.O.V

I sat in the living room when someone knocked on the door. I got up to open the door.

“Hello, is this Gerard Or Mikey Way’s house?” asked the guy in the doorstep. He was tall and very handsome. He had shoulder-length, brownish-gold hair. His brown eyes shone with happiness.

“Yes, but I think Gerard is asleep right now.” I said. I couldn’t take my eyes off of his eyes.

“Who are you, if I may ask.” He said.

“I’m Shira, I’m Mikey’s ex.” I said.

“I’m Adam, I was in Gerard’s class until 3 years ago.”

“Do you wanna come in?” I asked. He fascinated me.

“Okay.” He said and walked in with me.

“You want something to drink?” I asked when he sat on the couch. He nodded. I went to the kitchen and got back to the living room with 2 glasses of water.

“So, tell me, how come your Mikey’s ex and you live in his brother’s house?” Adam asked and sipped the water.

“he broke up with me just yesterday and he moved in with Frank, you know Frank?” I asked.

“Frank Iero?” I nodded. “Yeah, sure.” He said.

“Well, Frank is gay-“

“I knew it! It was obvious!” Adam said happily.

“And he’s with my brother but my brother is in the hospital cause he tried to kill himself and everybody thought he’s okay but the n he got an infection and he had a surgery so he needs to stay in the hospital so Frank was sad and kissed Mikey and I caught them so Mikey dumped me and moved in with Frank.” I was shocked by myself. I just spilled my heart out to a total stranger, but I did feel better.

“Wow. He whispered.

“I know, I’m weird and a basket case.”

“No, Mikey’s a jerk!” I looked at him, surprised.

“That is not the response I expected.” I mumbled.

“So… what else can you tell me about your life?” Adam asked and looked at me. I looked at him, doubtful. His face was sincere so I calmed down and told him about my life. He seemed really interested in that.

Part 7- Love Is In The Air

When I got out of my room I heard Jenny’s voice calling “I’m here!” from downstairs.

“Hi Jen, what’s up?” I asked when I got to the bottom of the staircase.

"I’m okay, you?” She asked and took her coat off.

“Good, good. How did work go?”

“Good, I quit it.” We walked to the living room and I couldn’t help but smile when I saw the surprised look on her face.

“Oh… my… god… Panic? Here?” she said, shocked.

“So why did you quit the job?” I asked and sat on the couch next to Brendon that smiled his big smile at me. I smiled back and looked at Jenny.

“Kids aren’t really my thing.” She said. Ryan got up.

“I think we should start preparing for the show, where is it going to happen?” he asked.

“We can do it in the studio.” I said and singed them to follow me. When we got to the basement Ryan looked around and then at Brendon and they both nodded.

“That’s good.” He said. I nodded and walked back upstairs. I planned on going back to the living room and talk with Jenny but then someone knocked on the door.

I walked to the door and opened it. All of a sudden something jumped on me and hugged me tight. I was surrounded by curly orange hair.

"Hi Molls, what's up?" I tried saying but there was too much pressure on my chest.

"What? Oh, I'm sorry." She said and let go of me.

"I asked what's up." I said.

"I'm okay, you?"

"I'm okay, what are you doing here?" I asked her.

"I came early." She said and walked in. I closed the door behind her and walked to the living room's direction.

"Come, I'll show you around." I said and led her to the living room.

"What took you so long?" Chris asked when we walked in.

"look what the wind blew in." I said and pointed at Molly that got in behind me.

"Hi Molly." Chris said. Jenny mumbled "Yay, she's here" and smiled quickly.

"Hello Molly, good to have you here." She said.

"So, the guys are downstairs in the studio and I'm giving Molly a tour around the house." I said and went upstairs.

I gave Molly a tour around the house, explaining her everything. I showed her to her room last.

"Jerry and Molly! The guys are ready!" I heard Chris shouting from downstairs.

"Let's go!" I said in excitement. I caught Molly's wrist and pulled her downstairs.

"Who's ready? What guys? Ready for what?" she asked as we ran downstairs.

We got into the basement and sat on some chairs the guys placed.

"Welcome to the Panic At The Disco show!" Brendon said to the mic. I clapped my hands happily and he smiled his gorgeous smile to me and winked. I felt my ears turning red.

Spencer counted to 4 and they started playing. I smiled and sang along as they played all their songs, first and second album. Between their songs they also preformed Tonight Tonight by the Smashing Pumpkins, Killer Queen by Queen and Lady Madonna by The Beatles. It was freaking awesome!

After the show we went upstairs. Chris, Jenny and I went to the kitchen and prepared dinner.

"Guys! Dinner is ready!" I shouted. Brendon ran into the kitchen first and sat next to the table. I got the drinks out when everybody sat down. Ryan sat nest to Brendon and Jenny sat on his other side. Beside her sat Chris and beside Chris Jon sat. I sat next to Brendon and Molly sat beside me what left Spencer the place between Molly and Jon and as soon as he sat down everybody started eating.

"So who are you?" Spencer asked Molly.

"Oh, right," I said "everybody- this is my cousin, Molly. Molly- these are Panic At The Disco- Ryan, Jon, Spencer and Brendon." I said and pointed at them. Molly nodded and smiled to everyone.

"How old are you?" Ryan asked.

"16." She answered quietly.

After dinner we sat together and talked for a little while.

"Wanna take a walk?" Brendon whispered in my ear. I nodded and we left. We took a long walk down the street. We walked for about an hour before we decide to stop and sit for a while.

"So... what about studying?" he asked.

"What are you, my mother? You really sound like her." I said and laughed.

"I was just interested since we talked about it last time." He explained.

"That's okay, I was kidding. I'm going to the music academy." I answered.

We started talking about music and our life. I told him about my family and he told me about his. We sat there for half an hour.

"Let's head back." I suggested. Brendon agreed and we started walking back.

When we got to the house we saw the guys and girls outside next to the guys' car. Brendon stopped and pulled my arm gently.

"Wait a minute." He said quietly.

I turned around and looked at him. We stood in a place where we could see the others but they can't see us.

"I had so much fun tonight, Jerry." He said.

"Me too." I said.

Brendon got closer to me. I looked into his eyes. I never noticed that but he wasn't very short, he was actually taller then me. I also noticed that he have a really wide nose. The things I notice when I'm in weird situations are weird.

"Can I..." he didn't finish the question but I knew what he wanted to ask. I nodded slowly. Brendon leaned towards me and pressed his soft lips against mine. I smiled and blushed.

"Thanks for the lovely night." He said. I smiled an even bigger smile. He took his phone out and we exchanged phone numbers. Only then we headed back to the guys. We said our farewells and the guys left.

"You look rather happy." Chris said.

"Yeah, it was a fun night." I said.

"No, there's something else." Jenny said.

"Yeah, you're almost glowing." Molly added.

"It was a once in a life-time opportunity but I'm already tired so I think I'll go now." I said.

I smiled a huge smile all the way to bed and fell asleep with it too.

Part 75

Gerard's P.O.V

I lied beside Jaid with my eyes closed, breathing heavily. Jaid lied beside me with her head on my chest.

"Gee maybe Mikey is gay..." she suddenly said quietly. I opened my eyes. Jaid turned her head to face me. I frowned.

"We already had that talk, haven't we?" I said and sat up. Jaid sat up too and looked at me with an annoyed look on her face. I couldn’t help but letting my eyes wonder down her beautiful body and smiled.

"Do I need to dress up to talk to you?" she said with a preaching tone. I looked at her face quickly.

"No..." I mumbled and looked away. I saw in the side of my eye that Jaid covered her body with the blanket. I looked back to her.

"I think he's with Frankie now." she said.

"Who is?" I blinked in confusion.

"Mikey."

"Why?"

"He kissed Frank then broke up with Shira and now he moved in with Frank." Jaid said. I looked at her with complete shock. She slowly nodded.

"He kissed Frank?" Jaid nodded. "He broke up with Shira?" She nodded again.

"Now you see why I thing he's gay?!"

"Yes."

"Good... would you talk to him? See what's up?"

"Okay... can I ask you something?"

"Sure."

"Why do you think of my brother after we're having Sex?" I asked her. Jaid smiled and punched my shoulder.

"Aw! That hurts!" I smiled and pulled her to me. Jaid giggled and pressed her lips against mine.

"Second round?" I asked, Jaid nodded and kissed me. "Okay." I said and pushed her down on the bed.

 

Mikey's P.O.V

As I lied down on the couch and tried to fall asleep I thought of everything that happened today.

I feel like dying!

I had a terrible headache and I felt so tired. I couldn't move.

Am I gay now? I mean, I kissed Frankie and then moved in with him.

I sat up. Too many thoughts ran through my head, I had to get rid of them. I knew exactly what to do.

I got up and opened my bag. I took the powder and needle out and prepared everything. I was never good with needles and with a shaking hand I injected the drug to my vines. I sat back and closed my eyes, waiting for the drug to do its work. It will be better now.

 

Linda's P.O.V

"How could you tell her?!" My mom yelled at me. I stared at the floor. I didn't have the guts to look up cause I feared she'll make me look into her eyes and I knew that I wouldn't stand the look I'll see in them.

"Answer me! How could you tell her? You promised you wouldn't!" She kept yelling when I didn't answer.

"I... I..." I mumbled.

"I knew it! I left you for a good reason! I knew you'll screw up my entire life!" I looked up at her, shocked. That was the first time I heard her or anyone talking about her leaving me.

"Wh-what did you say?" I asked with a shivering voice.

"I said I knew you'll ruin my life- that's why I left you."

"How could I ruin your life? I was only a baby!" now it was my torn to shout.

My mom looked at me and shook her head.

"You have no idea what I've been through for you!"

"What you- what you've been through? What about me and dad?" I felt the tears gathering in the side of my eye as I spat out the words.

"Yes! I had so much trouble having you! I did it only for your father! I didn't want you cause I knew I wasn't ready! You don't know anything about what happened to me! What I've been through!"

"Maybe if you wouldn't leave me with my father when he was dying I would have known!"

"I almost died in your birth, did you know that? Did you know that your sweet dying father used to hit me every time I spoke my mind, did you?" My mom cried now. She crushed on a chair and covered her face with her hand. Her entire body was trembling.

"He did what?" I asked, shocked. I was confused. All my life I lived thinking that my father was a poor man that was abandoned with a child by his one true love.

"Your father hit me and raped me. He was the only reason why I left you. I couldn't stand watching my own baby. I hated myself because every time I looked at you I wanted to kill you. I never wanted to see you because I wanted to give both of us a chance to live good life." She looked at me and I could see the pain in her eyes, the pain she felt.

I couldn't respond. I stood there and stared at her without any ability to react.

"Your father was an awful man but I stayed with him an entire year only for you. Eventually I couldn't take it anymore and left. A while after I left he got sick and sent you to he's sister. She always pitied me but no one dared to say anything. I lived in great grief for so long before I could start a new life. I can't have kids, not physically but mentally. None of these children are mine but they don't know that."

I crushed on the chair in front of her and looked at the floor. All these thoughts ran through my head and I couldn't help but wanting to kill myself right in this place. My entire world collapsed.

"I'm sorry for ruining your life but I was only 16, I was your age. Think what you would do if you were in my place."

 

Bob's P.O.V

"So... first birthday you remember." I said. Dani and I sat on the floor and shared things, trying to know each other better.

"Age 5, my neighbor decided it will be funny to throw me into the kids' pool." Dani said and started laughing her reach, rolling laughter. I laughed too.

"My torn! You first kiss." Dani said and leaned forward.

"Um... I think it was May on the 7^th grade... a girl from my class that really annoyed me so I kissed her cause that was the only way to make her shut up." Dani raised her eyebrows. We both cracked up in laughter together.

Part 6- Music Makes You Lose Control

 I woke up the next day with my alarm clock that was the radio so...

"Good morning, everybody!" The men in the radio said happily. "The time now is 7 o'clock and it's a great time to rise and shine and go to work or school or whatever! We'll start this great day with Find Me Somebody To Love by the extraordinary band Queen." The song began and I got up and went to take a shower. I don't like showering in the morning cause I freeze when I get out. I showered anyway cause I wanted to make good impression.

I got into the kitchen and saw a note from Jenny. It said:

'Hi girls,

I'm off to work. I'll be back in 5 o'clock.

Maybe we can have dinner together.

Have fun today,

Love, Jenny.'

There was a P.S. by Chris:

'Jerry, I went to look for a job... take a key with you and we'll talk later. Chris...'

I folded the note and threw it into the garbage can. I made myself a cup of tea and some toasts with butter for breakfast. That's what I usually eat when I don't have a lot of time.

I took a bus downtown and it stopped pretty much in front of the shop. I walked in and saw Ben sitting behind the desk with his legs up on the desk, his eyes closed and the radio is on playing American Idiot by Green Day. He seemed pretty happy by the situation.

"Good morning Ben." I said. He jumped and almost fell on his ass. I tried my best not to laugh and what came out was a little (huge!) smile.

"Hi Jerry! What's up? I didn't see you come in..." He said in embarrassment.

"I'm good."

"Ready to learn you new job?" He asked me.

"Yeah, I'm ready!"

Ben showed me how the music is organized in the shop and explained me what I should do around here.

"So, you remember everything, or at least most of it?" Ben asked me and sat down behind the desk.

"I think, yeah." I answered.

"Good cause here's your first costumer." Ben said and pointed at the tall guy that just walked in. He had earphones in his ears and he wore only black.

"Oh, and those are the worst kind..." Ben whispered in my ear. I looked at him with a horrified look on my face.

"What? Oh, not cause of that! People like him stay here for at least an hour, taking lots of CD's to hear them and in the end don't buy anything." Ben explained. I nodded to let him know I understood.

I walked to the guy. He looked at me and took the earphones out of his ears.

"Hello, can I help you?" I asked politely.

"No." he said, put the earphones back in his ears and turned away. I decided to examine the CDs he's looking at so I'll know his style.

After about 15 minutes I walked to him again.

"Could I let you hear a CD you might like?" I asked him. He looked at me and nodded. I led him to the listening station and gave him the CD. He placed the headphones on his head and pressed the play button. I stood beside him while he listened and looked at his face. He seemed to enjoy the music.

When the song was over he took the headphones off and looked at the album's cover.

"Did you like it?" I asked.

"Yeah, how much is it?" The guy asked. I could see Ben's shocked face.

"You're lucky, it's on sale. You can buy this and get another CD of the same genre in half price." I said. It wasn't the truth, I made it up. The guy seemed pleased.

Eventually he bought 2 CDs and left. I kind of feared looking in Ben's eyes.

"That's a great idea, this sell!" He said. I sat next to him and put my legs on the desk.

"I... I can't believe it... you actually made him buy something... and even 2 CDs!" He said with an amazed tone.

"I'm good, aren't I?" I said and turned the volume on the CD player up.

"You know what? You can have your own place on the 'CD of the month' board!" Ben said, excited. I looked at him with a confused look.

"What board?" I asked.

"Each person that works here and proves he's good at the job gets a place on the 'CD of the month' board. The 'CD of the month' board is where we hung a recommendation on an album that the workers like. You need to write a little bit about the artist, about the album itself and about a song you choose from the record." Ben explained. I smiled- it sounded really nice.

"Oh and you can listen to any of the CD's in the store, you can borrow them too. Well, it makes sense- You'll need to know what you're selling. Oh and you can buy any record in the store with 25% off." Ben said and looked at me with a pleased look. Now I liked this job even more.

I got back home in about 3:30. It was a good time to be back home. I took a frozen pizza out of the frizzier and threw it to the microwave. While it heated up I went to my room to take clean clothes and took a fast shower. Yeah, I know it's the second one today but it was too hot outside!

I went to the kitchen and took the pizza out of the microwave. I took it to the living room and turned on TV. I switched the channels until I got to MTV. There was so crappy video but I didn't have the energy for anything other then music. So I had to watch the new The Used video, that's how lazy I was.

In the middle of the video the door was opened and Chris ran inside and sat next to me.

"Wow! It's the new video! You actually watched that?" She asked in excitement.

"No, not really." I said and got up. I walked to the kitchen and put my dishes in the sink.

"So, how was your day?" Chris yelled from the living room. That was my sign that it was safe to come back. If the video wasn't over yet she wouldn't talk.

"It was awesome!" And I told her everything that happened today.

"I found the perfect job too! I found a job at Joey's!" She was right of course- it was the perfect job for her.

"I'm so happy for you!" I said. Suddenly the door bell rang.

I got up and walked to the door. I opened it slowly.

"Hello!" Brendon said and walked in. Ryan smiled a polite smile.

"We're working on his manners." He said and pulled his shoulders up. I smiled and moved aside so the rest of the bend could come in.

"Where's the kitchen? If we want cold drinks we need to put them in the fridge." Jon said. I pointed at the kitchen. Ryan mumbled something like "no kidding". Jon didn't hear him or decided to ignore but Spencer smiled and even let out a little giggle.

I walked to the living room and found Brendon dancing in front of the TV.

"Did you drink, Bren?" Spencer asked as the guys walked in.

"No! Well, maybe... yeah, Pete took me out or a drink." Brendon said and looked away. Everyone laughed.

"So... what are you doing here?" Chris asked.

"We were in your area and thought we'll come and perform for you." Spencer answered.

"Where is Jenny anyway?" Ryan asked.

"She's still at work." I said.

"So we'll have to wait for her." He said and sat next to Chris.

"Well, I'm gonna go change, feel free to drink anything, eat anything and watch whatever you like on TV as long as it  doesn't cost anything." I said and left the room.

"Can I join you?" I heard Brendon yell.

"Brendon- you can be so annoying when you're drunk!" I heard Ryan respond.

Part 74

Mikey's P.O.V

I got out of the bathroom. Frank waited for me there.

"That was fast, what happened?" he asked me. I kissed him softly. He looked at me with a surprised look.

"Nothing, I just made sure she knows we're over." I answered. Frank looked shocked by what I said.

"Okay..." he said quietly.

"You want to go?" I asked him.

"Where?"

"Toy your house, I need to take some things from my house but then we can go to your place." I said, took his hand in mine and pulled him gently. Frank seemed puzzled.

"Fine, you have a car here?" He asked me. I nodded. He nodded back and went.

 

Gerard's P.O.V

Jaid and I sat together in the living room and talked about the wedding.

"Jaid- it will cost a fortune!" I said. Jaid looked at me with a frustrated look.

"I'll make my parents pay a little." She said, "Gerard- I want the most amazing dress and I won't settle for less!"

"Oh... okay than... I guess if your parents will pay..." I said. Jaid smiled and kissed me.

"That's the way I like you." She said and kissed me again.

"Yummy..." I whispered. Jaid giggled. I pushed her gently on the couch and kissed her neck. I love the sounds she makes when I do that, a soft, low, long moan that makes me wanna rip her clothes off.

"Gee..." her voice slowly faded. I took her shirt off and kissed her lips. Jaid pulled my shirt over my head and kissed my neck.

"Hi Gerard, hi Jaid." I heard Mikey's voice. Jaid jumped aside and covered her body with my shirt that was in her hand. I smiled and pulled her to me, hugging her.

"Oh! I'm so sorry Gee!" I heard Frank saying. I looked up. He stood with his back to us.

"That's okay..." I mumbled.

Mikey walked back in.

"I'm moving to Frankie's house so he wouldn't be alone." He said.

"What about Shira?" Jaid asked. Mikey tuned to face her.

"She can sleep in my room if she wants to." He said and he and Frank left.

"I think they broke up." Jaid said. I nodded.

"Why don't we continue what we did before the stopped us?!" I suggested.

"Remind me?" I kissed her neck and backed away. Jaid smiled a naughty smile. I pushed her down and kissed her breast. She unzipped my pants and with my help took them off.

The door suddenly opened and Mikey walked in again. Jaid and I jumped up.

"I forgot my bass." He said. He took his bass and left. I sighed and looked at Jaid. She seemed furious by the continuing interrupting entrances.

Suddenly she jumped at me and kissed me passionately. I wrapped my hands around her and pulled her closer to me.

We laid there, cuddled in each other's arms and kissed.

The door was opened again. I sat up.

"What now?!" I yelled/ Shira stood in the entrance with a shocked and disturbed look on her face. I covered myself with the blanket.

Shira swallowed her spit and ran away, crying.

"Good on, Gee!" Jaid said angrily and got up, dressing up while running after Shira.

I laid back and sighed.

 

Jaid's P.O.V

I stood in the entrance to Mikey's room and knocked on the door. It was open but I wanted to be polite.

Shira sat on the floor, by the bed with her head leaning on it. She wiped her eyes and looked at me.

"Can I come in, Shira?" I asked quietly. Shira nodded slowly. I walked in and kneeled beside her. I put my hand on her back and petted her.

"I'm sorry about what Gerard said and how he said it. How is Erik?" I whispered.

"That's not cause of Gerard and I don't know how Erik is." She mumbled.

"Didn't you go and visit him in the hospital?"

"I did."

"And? Haven't you talked with him? Haven't you talked with the doctor?"

"I didn't even see Erik." She said and started crying again.

"Hi, hi, relax honey. Why didn't you see him?" I asked, hugged her and started rocking back and forth.

"I... I saw... I saw M... Mikey and... and Frank... kissing!" she said through sobs. I couldn't say I was shocked but I was surprised that it happened again, so soon.

"Oh Shira, I'm so sorry! Did you talk with him after that?"

"He just dumped me." She answered with a shivering voice.

"Shira..." I said quietly, in a merciful tone.

"I'll be okay, now if you wouldn't mind, I need to pack." Shira said and got up, wiped her tears and started looking around the room.

"Well, you can stay here. He's staying in Frank's house." I said. Shira looked at me and tried to smile.

"Thanks."

"You're welcome. I think I'll leave you alone for now." I said and got up. "Feel free to talk with me." I added and left.

 

Frank's P.O.V

As soon as Mikey parked the car in front of the apartment I ran to that house. I got into the kitchen and started looking in the cabinets for something to drink.

"What are you doing?" Mikey asked. He stood in the entrance to the kitchen.

"Looking for... there it is!" I said and pulled the big bottle of Brandy. I knew Erik had good alcoholic drinks but I knew he's hiding them for special occasions and case-of-need so I never tried to find it.

"Alcohol? You want to drink?" Mikey asked me. I nodded and took a couple of glasses. I put them on the counter. I poured the Brandy into both glasses, then took one of them and gave it to Mikey. I took the other one and the bottle and went upstairs to my room.

I sat on my bed and slowly drank the Brandy. The liquid wormed my throat as it ran down it.

I took the bottle and tried to pour some of the drink to the glass but my hand was shaking so... it didn't work so well. Everything was spilled on the floor. I picked up the bottle and drank straight from it.

"What's wrong?" Mikey asked and walked in.

"I... I just feel like drinking myself to sleep." I mumbled. Mikey looked at me and raised his eyebrows. He walked towards me and then stopped and looked down at the floor.

"Did you spill some Brandy?" he asked and looked at me. I nodded. He nodded back and left.

Mikey got back into the room after few seconds with a rag. He kneeled down and started cleaning the floor.

I caught myself staring at his ass. I shook my head and looked aside.

"Maybe you should get some sleep." Mikey said. I looked at him. E looked worse then ever, worse then I did for sure. He had this distanced look in his eyes and he seemed 20 years older then he really is.

"I think you should go to sleep too." I said, "You look awful."

"Thanks..." he mumbled. I smiled a little smile, "I think I will go lay down a little, I feel dizzy." He said and left the room.

 

Jaid's P.O.V

I walked back into the living room. Gerard sat on the couch all dressed up.

"I'm sorry honey." I said and stood in front of him.

"That's okay, I was just thinking it will be a fun way to distress." Gerard mumbled.

"Oh... I guess you're right." I said quietly and looked down, "wanna move to the bedroom?" I looked back up and smiled a naughty smile. Gerard smiled, jumped up, lifted me and ran upstairs with me in his arms.

We got into the bedroom. Gerard closed the door and placed me on the bed. Then he crushed on the bed beside me.

"Are you ready for Gee?" He said and started kissing my neck. I couldn't help but giggle.

A fan fiction my friend wrote. She doesn't have a buzznet account so I post it here.

Part 57- Ryan

"Oh wow." Johnny said smiling. We stood in a beautiful apartment with a bright wood floor.

"Yeah, it's a great space, two bedrooms, one bathroom, a nice kitchen, everything you need." said the mediator.

"Can we afford it?" I asked.

"Yes, the man who owns this apartment bought it for his mistress, he sails it in a ridiculously low price since he doesn't want his wife to find out." he said.

"Are we taking it?" I asked Johnny.

"I think so, yeah." he said, smiling.

"We're taking it." I told the mediator.

"Great, when do you want to move here?" he asked.

"What about today?" Johnny said.

"Today it is." he said. I looked at Johnny happily. It was too good for words. "We have a home." Johnny said and hugged me tight.

"Finally." I sighed. On our way to Jimmy's house I realized we have to go to my parents' house to bring our stuff, I haven't talked to my dad since he found out I was gay.

"It'll be okay, he's your father, he loves you." Johnny comforted me.

"You know it's not always true." I said. His father hit him and kicked him out of the house, almost every time Johnny has a nightmare, it somehow connected to his father, I never met him and I hate his guts.

"It's not the same. My father was an old stupid, awful, son of a bitch. Rest in peace." he said. I sighed, I didn't want to deal with my dad, but I can't just leave it like that.

"Don't worry." he said, moving his hand on the back of my neck and through my hair slowly. It always relaxes me.

"Oh yeah, what a great song." he said and turned up the music. He started singing with the radio, "I want you, I want you so bad, it's driving me mad, it's driving me mad. I want youuu, I want you so bad…"

I laughed and sang with him, it was so funny. He started dancing with the music and playing air guitar.

We took the things we had at Jimmy's house, she wasn't there and we wanted to thank her and everything, so we decided to go back there later. We went to my parents' house and as we got closer the more I wanted to go back.

"We don't have to move today, you want to do this some other time?" he looked at me.

"No, no, it's okay." I mumbled. We got there and my dad's car was parking next to the house. I knocked on the door quietly and pried they didn't hear, but after few seconds my mom opened the door.

"Boys!" she said happily and hugged me, and than Johnny. We both were surprised.

"Hey mom, we came to take out things." I said. She smiled and let us in.

"Do you want something to eat, or drink?" she asked. I looked at Johnny, he nodded negative.

"No, thank you." I said. We started walking upstairs and than Johnny caught my hand and pointed at my dad that was sitting in the living room, reading a newspaper.

"Hey dad." I said quietly.

"Oh, hey" he replied, he didn't even look at me. He stuck his head behind the stupid newspaper.

"Are you still mad?" I asked.

"For the love of god Ryan, I'm not mad, I'm worried." he said, and put the newspaper down.

"Worried?" I asked.

"I'm going to bring our things." Johnny whispered to me and went upstairs.

"Yes, I'm worried, two men together? It's not normal Ryan." he said.

"Are you stuck in the freaking forties?" I asked angrily.

"Watch your mouth, son!" he shouted.

"You know what? I just wanted to know if we're okay, we're obviously not. And it's alright with me." I said.

"If it's alright with you we have nothing to talk about." he said and sat down.

I was so angry at him, I knew he would have a hard time with it, but I didn't expect this reaction. I walked upstairs to help Johnny, he almost finished packing.

"He'll calm down." Johnny said.

"I don't know…"

We went down and my mom and dad stood next to the door.

"You're dad has something to say." my mom said looking at him. "Come on!" she urged.

"Ryan, you're a grown up now, you have your own life, and I can only hope you do the right thing. And if you two really love each other, I give you my blessing." he said.

"Thanks dad."

Even though my mom forced him to say that, it meant a lot. They invited us to stay for dinner but we said we can't because we're moving. My mom walked us to the car.

"You look happy." she said to me, smiling.

We drove back to Jimmy's house. she gets crazy when her parents aren't at home, not crazy in a bad way. She put some weird music in the living room and turned it so loud we could here it from outside. When we got in we saw her with a stained ripped shirt and short pants, painting something on the wall. "Hey guys." she said with something in her mouth.

"Hey." Johnny said. I turned down the music.

"Why did you do that?" she asked me.

"I couldn't hear you."

"Ohh, okay… I made French toast, you better eat it warm." she said. Johnny stood next to her, looking at the painting.

"Looks like something Jackson Folock would do." Johnny said.

"Thanks." Jimmy smiled. They're both into pop art and Scandinavian artists and all kind of weird modern stuff.

"My parents are coming tomorrow, I can ask them if you can stay for a while but you would have to sleep separately and everything." she said.

"We found a place." Johnny said, "and Ryan made up with his father."

"Really? Awesome, congratulations." she smiled at us.

"Thanks for everything." Johnny said.

"Anytime Johnny boy." she hugged him, and then came to hug me.

"I owe you." I said.

"Shut up Ryan. Oh, and by the way, my friend Noam is coming tomorrow, don't make any planes." she enounced.

"Sure."

After a long goodbye we went to our new apartment. The mediator waited there with the key and a pail of papers to sign on.

"It's all yours." he said and gave Johnny the key. Johnny went to look around the apartment while I talked with the mediator, Richard.

"It looks like your friend is interested to be more than your friend, if you know what I mean." he said annoyingly. It was funny to see how carefully he chose his words. I decided to make his life harder.

"What to you mean?" I asked him, trying my best not to laugh.

"I mean, like when a guy likes guys, you know, a homo." he said.

"Ohh…" I nodded.

"Johnny, can you come here for a second?" I called him. He came and stood by me. I pulled him and kissed him, a long, wet kiss, and looked at Richard that was blushed and speechless. Before he left he apologized for his 'homo' comment and said he has nothing against gay people.

We crashed on the couch, before we started to unpack and choose a room and everything. We had only the couch, everything else was packed.

"We don't fuck, right? We're having sex, or making love." he said, looking at me.

"We fucked once." I said, smiling, "remember that rainy day, about three weeks ago, when we came back. soaking wet, from Plutosand's concert, and went to shower. We kissed like we hadn't seen each other for years…" I said quietly. He pulled my hand gently and shoved it into his pants.

"And?" he sighed.

"And I moved slowly towards your neck, and to your chest, and your belly." I whispered, moving my hand faster as he's moaning and starching.

"Yeah?" he moaned, and leaned his head back.

"I went down on you, the water was so hot and the steams filled the room, you moved your fingers in my wet hair, breathing heavily, and when you were about to come I stopped." I said.

"Yeah?" he sighed.

"You attached me to the wall and fucked me. I asked you to go faster, and you did. I felt your breathes on the back of my neck, like in the first time we did it like that, just much faster." I said quietly. He starched back, holding my free hand tightly, close to his chest.

"Ha..." he moaned, and slowly loosened his body.

"And then you came." I smiled at him and took my hand out of his pants. He smiled and kissed me softly.

"And then we did it again." he said and climbed on top of me.

"Right."

A fan fiction my friend wrote. She doesn't have a buzznet account so I post it here.

Part 56- Yaara

"Mikey, wake up, it's the last school day." I shook him. I wasn't really exited for some reason, I guess it's because I know I'm going to college next year, and it wouldn't be so different than school.

"Just five more minuets mom." he said sleepily.

"Don't call me mom, it's disturbing."

"Okay. Get closer, I need to tell you something." he said. I bended over him, he smiled and started tickling me.

"Mikey stop!" I laughed. He pulled me closer to him and kissed me.

"I love you." he said.

"I'm sure you do." I smiled.

"Oh yeah?" he said and sat on top of me, "say that you love me too or we won't get to school today."

"I love you too." I smiled.

"I'm sure you do." he said teasingly.

We got ready for school and arrived on time. We went to sit with everyone on the grass, for the last time.

"Guys, we have an announcement to make." Ryan said. Johnny leaned on him, smiling shyly.

"Ryan, are you pregnant?" Mikey asked, smiling. Everyone started to laugh. "It never gets old." I said.

"Why everyone always assume I'm the one who's pregnant?" Ryan asked.

"It's just the way it is, deal with it." Kesem said.

"What was the announcement?" Jimmy asked. Ryan looked at Johnny, Johnny raised his hand up and showed us a silver ring, Ryan had the same ring on his finger, it took me few seconds to understand.

"Oh my god." I smiled.

"Holy crap, congratulations!" Frankie said and hugged them.

"That's crazy." Kesem said happily and hugged Johnny, and then Ryan,

I jumped at them and hugged them both tightly, I was so happy for them.

"Oh my god." I sighed, I was still so surprised.

"Wait a second, you're gay?" Mikey asked Ryan teasingly and hugged him.

"Lucky bastard." Jimmy said and hugged Johnny, "and you too" she said to Ryan. I was glad she didn't take it hard. I guess she got over him.

When the bell rang everyone went to their class, I started to feel the excitement in the air. Kesem and I went to our class and there was something on my table, it was a cookie with a note, I sat down and opened the note, and it said:

Yaara

I'm not so good with words, not really.

But you're on my mind, and I can't take you out.

It’s like, in my head, I know you and you know me.

In my head it's good, too good to let go.

I don't know… maybe I'm a fool.

Jason Careans.  O53-6987814

It really made a mess of me. I didn't know what to do. I mean, the first thing I meant to do is throw it away, but I couldn't, it was so sweet and weird, I don't know...

I put the note deep in my bag but it didn't get out of my head all day long.

I knew Jason, not personally but I saw him few times in school, even talked to him few times. He has the bad boy look, he's pretty skinny, but not too much, usually wears dark clots, and if I remember well he has a tattoo on his finger.

But he's really quiet, and sometimes I see him talking with Jimmy next to the library, so he can't be that bad…or that sane.

When the last lesson ended we all went out for ice cream, to celebrate the last day. In some point I pulled Jimmy aside.

"You know Jason, right?" I looked at her.

"Yeah, so?"

"He left me a note" I said quietly.

"He told you?" she asked surprised.

"You knew?"

"Yeah, he told me. Look, that boy is really the sweetest, sensitive, smartest, cutest, screwed up person in the world, just tell him you're with someone, don't let him think he might still have a chance." she said.

"Okay." I said. And this is what I meant to do, to call him and clear things up.

It was in my head all day long, but I didn't call him till midnight, I knew it was late but for some reason I just couldn't bring myself to pick up the phone and call him before. I was nervous when I could, I didn't know exactly what to say.

"Hello." Jason answered.

"Hey, it's Yaara… you left me a note on the table today, and I thought I should tell you I'm with someone." I said.

"You called."

"Yeah, but just because I wanted to tell you I have a boyfriend." I said.

"I know."

"So why did you leave the note?" I asked.

"I just wanted to talk with you, I'm sorry if I annoyed you." he said.

"You didn't, I just, why did you want to talk with me?" I asked.

"I don't know, you seem interesting."

"Me?" I asked surprised. I hang out with a bunch of messed up, weird, suicidal, gay-straight, alcoholic, junkies… and I'm the normal, stable one, what's so interesting about me?

"Yes, you." he said.

"What is so interesting about me?"

"Can't you just accept the fact I'm interested in you?" he laughed.

"I'm with someone, you remember, right?" I asked.

"I just want to talk, and maybe go out for coffee sometime." he said.

"I don't like coffee."

"Thank god, neither do I. so what about pizza or ice cream?"

"Sure, why not?!" I said, smiling.

"Great. So Yaara, what do you think about the globule warming?"

"What?" I asked confused.

"Kidding… what music you like?"

Related Groups: Die-hards, My Chemical Romance Fans, Panic! At The Disco

A fan fiction my friend wrote. She doesn't have a buzznet account so I post it here.

Part 55- Jimmy

"Hey..." I answered the phone sleepily. It was really early, around ten AM.

"It's Frankie, can you talk?" he asked. I was happy to hear from him, he acted really weird lately, and didn't talk much.

"Sure, what's up?" I asked.

"Can we meet somewhere? I need to go out."

"Sure, give me twenty minuets, I'll meet you in the park." I said.

"Okay." he said and hanged up. I dragged myself out of the bed and right to my room. I had to get there to take cloths, Johnny and Ryan were still sleeping, hugging each other, so I got dressed there, quietly. I must say I didn't feel jealous anymore, we never had what they have. I never had what they have. My relationships are always cold and impersonal. I loved Ryan, I still do, but I guess I'm not built for this kind of relationship. It's depressing in a way, but there's not much I can do.

When I arrived to the park Frankie was there, he looked pale and exhausted, the thing that most scared me was the way he just sat there and stared at some invisible spot in the air, looking so severed from everything around.

"Frankie." I said and sat next to him.

"Hey." he replied. I sat there looking at him, he wasn't there.

"I think I tried to kill myself." he suddenly said. I looked at him surprised, it was a bomb.

"You think?" I asked.

"Kesem thinks I did, and the doctors and my parents also. I don't remember but maybe I did." he said, staring at nothing again.

"What did you do?" I asked him. I was scared to ask, scared to know.

"I cut myself." he answered. I looked at his hand- he wore a long sleeved shirt even though it was summer.

"Frankie, what's going on, what happened?" I asked quietly. His eyes became red. A single tear leaked on his cheek to his lip, fall on his bottom lip and into his mouth. He didn't bother to dry his face. It sure was the last thing that bothered him at that moment. I wanted to hug him, I really did but I didn't know if I should.

"Frankie, just tell me, okay?" I said.

"I was in a bar, something happened and I woke up next to the garbage cans behind the bar, naked, I was bruised and couldn't remember anything." he said quietly, I was shocked, but I had to let him talk. "I started to remember, there were two men in the bar, they pushed me on the floor and kicked me, and raped me." he said, tears flooded his eyes, mine too. I couldn't control myself and hugged him, tight, I didn't mean to let go on him, even though he tried to back off.

"It will be fine, don't worry." I said, hugging him. I didn't hear him crying but he was.

We both calmed down a little and decided to call everyone to my house. Ryan and Johnny were already there and they heard that Frankie tried to kill himself. Ryan took it really hard, as always, he blamed himself for not being there for Frankie.

Mikey, Yaara and Kesem came after few minuets. Yaara was very surprised too, Kesem knew and Mikey was just confused. We all sat in the living room, waiting for someone to say something. Yaara was the one who saved us from the awkward silence.

"Are you better now?" she asked Frankie quietly. He looked at her, and didn't know what to say, it was awful. Everyone was looking at him, waiting for explanation or something.

"I also tried to kill myself once." I said, looking at Frankie. I didn't want to say this, not in front of every one but I couldn't let him feel so bad about that. They looked at me shocked. I wished I wouldn't have said it.

"Me too." Johnny suddenly said. I was surprised, we all were.

"Me too, sort of." Mikey said quietly, looking at the floor. That was really surprising.

"What the hell is going on?" Kesem said angrily.

Then, Frankie laughed in the first time in few weeks, I didn't know why he was laughing but it made me feel so good, I just started to laugh too, and then Ryan and Johnny, together like robots, started to laugh, and then Mikey, and Yaara and even Kesem.

"You never told me about it." Ryan said to Mikey and me. I guess Johnny told him.

"Yeah, when did that happen?" I asked Johnny and Mikey.

"When I was seventeen, my friend, Justin, and I made a suicide alliance, we tried to drink ourselves to death." Johnny said.

"I was fifteen, I tried with sleeping pills but I can't swallow well, and I puked everything…" Mikey said.

"You never told me." Yaara said, looking at him.

"Because it's embarrassing! I didn't even fall asleep, I puked the pills right away." he said. Ryan, Mikey and I laughed but Yaara looked at us angrily so we stopped.

"When did you do that?" Frankie asked me.

"Fourteen…fourteen and a half…" I said.

"You're creeps, you're weirdoes, what the hell I'm doing here? I don't belong here. Oh ho, oh ho, gee…ho oh again…" Yaara sang.

"Gush, thanks, miss perfect." Mikey said and kissed her on the forehead. "You're welcome sweetie." she smiled.

Somehow we started to talk about first times, it was stupid but at least it made everyone in a good mood. We sat in a circle, Ryan, Johnny, me, Frankie, Kesem, Yaara and Mikey.

"Seventeen, Frankie." Kesem said awkwardly. Frankie smiled and kissed her, which made me so happy, he looked so much better.

"Seventeen and Kesem was my first too." Frankie said. All the guys started cheering.

"Sixteen, Sarah. Johnny is my first, only…guy." Ryan said.

"Sixteen, Kim, and Ryan is my first and only too." Johnny said. For some reason I thought Johnny had other guys before, but I wasn't too surprised to hear he didn't.

"Seventeen, Ryan." I said. Ryan smiled at me, it made feel bad, about my self, about Johnny, I don't know….

"Mikey, eighteen." Yaara said. Kesem and I actually bought a cake when it happened. She's so picky, the boyfriend she had before Mikey was really sweet, but she said he's not the right person. I always admired her self-discipline.

"Sixteen, Emily." Mikey said.

Just before everyone left, I heard Frankie saying to Kesem he has something to tell her, I was a little concerned, I mean, I know Kesem. I know she loves him no matter what, but she has a hard time dealing with that kind of stuff.

 

N is for…New album
The ‘The Black Parade’
Gerard: “We’re really excited because I feel now more than ever we’re going to get to make the record we’ve always wanted to make. The band has always had major growth spurts and we’re in another one right now. Lyrically it’s more natural. Not that the stuff before wasn’t honest but I was using fiction as metaphor. These songs are just using real life, straight up. The poetry is still there but it’s definitely more about social commentary. Some songs sound like they could have been on Pulp’s ‘Different Class’ or Blur’s ‘Parklife’.

O is for…Other artists’ opinions
When Dave Grohl loves your band you can’t go wrong.
Frank: “I think Dave Grohl made fun of our make-up.”
Mikey: “He really likes our band though, which is awesome. It’s surreal because people you grew up listening to or saw on TV come to your shows and hang out with you. It’s at the point now where if the Pope turned up at our show I’d be like, ‘Oh cool, but I’m really tired. Can I go to sleep?’”

And for…Oasis
Gerard: “I’ve really been getting into them. They write fucking amazing songs. Timeless, beautiful songs. I’d love to do a Brit Pop covers EP with Oasis and Pulp’s ‘Disco 2000’. Maybe we can get on to that.”

P is for…The Pipeline
The New Jersey hangout that provided a sanctuary for MCR in their youth.
Mikey: “That place was a big part of our musical upbringing. It was the first place I saw a show, the first place Gerard saw a show and the first place Ray’s band The Rodneys played a show at in 96 or 97. It was just 100 person capacity but any day of the week there would be amazing bands playing – Nine Inch Nails, AFI, Bouncing Souls, Madball. Now it’s a parking lot. I kind of wish it was still around.”

Q is for…Questions
The more famous you get, the more outrageous they become.
Mikey: “Anything you can possibly think of, someone will ask. There’ll be all sorts of crazy stuff coming out of fans’ mouths like, ‘Are you dating so-and-so?’ or ‘Are you guys millionaires?’”
Gerard: “How old my daughter is. That’s the weirdest question. I don’t have a daughter. I think people just read into liner notes too much.”

R is for…Record label
Frank Iero is no one-trick pony, boys and girls.
Frank: “I’ve started something called Skeleton Crew. It’s a record label, a book publishing company and we do clothing design as well. We’re working on a 10-inch by The Mean Reds, a band from Tucson, Arizona. We’re designing a jacket for Gerard and me. I’m going to write a book and so is Keith Buckley from Every Time I Die. Wes Eisold (Some Girls / American Nightmare) is doing an album. Right now it’s just starting but you’ll be able to find stuff at skeletoncrewonline.com soon.”

S is for…saving lives
Some say music is as powerful as religion, including MCR.
Frank: “One thing we can say for sure is that the band saved our lives. I always thought I had something to offer and I wanted to have some importance in my life, so this band was the best thing that ever happened to me. Before that I was on a fast track to doing nothing. If there’s a higher power, it was definitely looking out for me and I try to repay that every day. I think we offer our fans a sanctuary rather than salvation. The band is a tool to save yourself. We’re like a support group – the AA of saving lives!”

T is for…Touring
Hardest working band on the planet? MCR are strong contenders.
Gerard: “Touring is the lifeblood of the band next to the fans. Occasionally we might come across as if we don’t like it, but that’s only because we do it so much. You get tired. But touring is the reason we write songs. We don’t’ write albums - we write songs; and we don’t write songs for albums – we write them to play live.”

U is for…Unicorns
We all know unicorns aren’t real - just don’t tell Mikey Way.
Mikey: “A friend has a company called Pretty Vacant and they make all sorts of clothes and random things like buttons. I have a white unicorn button on every one of my jackets. Maybe they do exist. Who knows? I guess it’s become a good luck thing because I’ve switched this one I’m wearing from jacket to jacket. We’re all kind of superstitious in this band.”

V is for…Videos
The epic WWII-themed video for ‘Ghost Of You’ cost an incredible $500,000.
Gerard: “Videos are extremely important in this band. This time we needed a departure. We needed to take the band to the next level and we needed to do something unexpected. Everyone expected a gothic video with ghosts so we expressly didn’t do it like that.”
Mikey: “I’m so proud of that video. Most of my friends who saw it cried at the end during my big death scene. There are some great USO scenes and awesome war snippets. The pain on everyone’s faces in that video is real – we were in 80 pounds of gear, waist deep in water and explosions were going off. I think we had the right budget to pull it off properly.”

W is for…Well-travelled
Want to know what Diet Pepsi tastes like Outer Mongolia? Ask Gerard Way.
Gerard: “In our first year we went to Europe and hit Germany, Spain, Holland and the UK. That was a huge accomplishment. No indie band did that. Now we’re hitting places like Mexico, Latin America and Australia. So we really feel like we have a sense of the whole world. We don’t just live in a bubble. We know what Diet Pepsi tastes like in London or whatever.”

And for…Warped Tour
Gerard: “Warped is an integral part of our career. Kevin Lyman (Warped founder) really believed in us and put us on when everyone else was telling him it wouldn’t work. It also has a huge role in building our fan base.”

X is for…X-rated
Live shows don’t get much raunchier than this.
Gerard: “There’s definitely a trashy, x-rated vibe to our live set. It’s mainly to put off homophobes, but also because as seriously as you take this, you can’t take yourself that seriously. So it’s like aggressive, soft-core gay porn. There’s a little man love, maybe some smooching, definitely some crotch grabbing. I definitely used to fuck the monitors.”

Y is for…Years together
It’s four years and counting in MCR land…
Gerard: “We’ve been together almost four years which I never would have thought possible. We’re almost on our third record. It’s crazy. I don’t think this band will ever stop feeling right or good. But when it’s the natural time, it should die. We’re very perceptive people so we’ll accept it when it happens, and it’s not necessarily when the chips are down.”

Z is for…Zebras
And you thought Mikey was weird?
Frank: “Everything was zebra with Bob for a little while. He had little toy zebras in his bunk, a zebra blanket, his drum seat was zebra…”
Mikey: “He got to the point where he had so much zebra stuff he didn’t know what to do with it. He says he’s over it now but I think he’s lying.”

Part 73

Frank's P.O.V

I sat outside of Erik's room and waited. Waited... it seemed like I was waiting forever. Eventually he came.

"Mikey!" I cried and fell on his shoulders. Mikey hugged me tightly and it felt good. He had a weird smell that I never smelled on him before.

"What happened?" Mikey whispered in my ear. I looked away slowly and sat down on the bench.

"Erik... Erik's in bad shape... he just got out of surgery... he'll have to stay here..." I mumbled.

"Look, Frankie, I'm sorry about what happened then." Mikey mumbled. I smiled a little smile.

"That's alright, let's just forget about it." I said and put my head on his shoulder.

"You seem tired." Mikey whispered in my ear, "You should lie down."

I lied down on the bench and put my head on his knees. Mikey moved his fingers through my hair and played with it for a while.

"Will you move in with me? I mean, just until Erik will return..." I asked Mikey. He waited for couple of minutes before he answered.

"Sure, if that's what you want..." He said. I sat up and looked at him. He smiled a soft smile.

 

Bob's P.O.V

I couldn't wait here anymore. I got up and left the house. I drove to the hospital and ran to Dani's room. I knocked on the door gently.

"Who's that?" Dani asked.

"It's me, Bob." I answered. I heard footsteps and then the door was opened. Dani caught my collar and pulled me to the room.

"You can't be seen here!" She said quickly and kissed me.

"Why can't I?" I asked, pulled her closer to me and kissed her back.

"Cause if doctor Rollins will see you hear he won't let us meet ever again!" Dani explained and sat on the bed.

"So let me get this straight- we'll see each other only when the nurse lets you out... that's not a lot..." I said. Dani nodded.

"I know it's not a lot and it's not comfortable but that's what we need to do in order to keep seeing each other." She said.

"Oh well, at least it's something." I said and sat on the bed next to Dani.

"Oh... it sucks to be me..." Dani said and leaned her head on my shoulder.

"No... I'm sure there's worse..."

"Did you miss the speech I gave you yesterday?!" Dani said and looked at me with a wondering look.

I smiled, grabbed her small chin and kissed her.

"Bob, I really like you..." Dani said and wrapped her hands around my neck.

"Oh, really? I thought you're kissing me just cause you enjoy the kissing part." I said sarcastically. Something about the way she talked- so freely, so real, made me adore her. Absolutely adore her.

 

Frank's P.O.V

"Oh, wait, what about Shira?" I asked. Mikey pulled his shoulders up.

"We kinda... not together anymore..." He said. I looked at him with a shocked face.

"Stop it! Everyone knows we're not good together!" He said and looked away. I looked away too.

I didn't know what came on to me but I held Mikey's head, turned it to me and kissed him.

I pulled back and looked at Mikey with a terrified look. Mikey looked down and had a confused look on his face.

"You know... you're a good kisser." Mikey said after few minutes of silence.

I smiled and hugged him. We broke and looked in each other's eyes. Mikey had a distanced look in his eyes. I was so focused in his eyes that I didn't notice he out his hands on both sides of my head and pulled me closer to him.

The next thing I knew was that Mikey is kissing me. And I really enjoyed it.

 

Shira's P.O.V

I drove like a maniac. I got to the hospital in about 20 minutes but it seemed like ages.

I ran to the secretary and asked her about Erik. She said he's out of surgery and is in room 11 in the ICU. I nodded to let her know I understood and ran all the way up to the ICU.

As I got closer I felt my heart biting faster, I walked around the corner and stopped. There were a couple of guys sitting on the bench outside of room 11 and kissing. I didn't want to bother them but I really wanted to see my big brother.

I started walking to their direction trying my best not to look at them and smile. I caught a glimpse of the two guys' faces. Only when I put my hand on the doorknob I understood who I saw.

I turned around slowly. My eyes were wide open and I felt the tears stinging my eyes. The guys that were kissing were Frank and Mikey.

I started running, wiping and crying. I could hear Frank running after me and calling my name. I got into the first bathroom I passed and locked myself in one of the stoles.

I heard Frank walking in.

"Shira?" He asked and started looking under the door, knocking on them and opening some. I put my legs on the toilet sit and hugged my knees.

"Shira, are you here? Please talk to me!" Frank had a begging tone in his voice. I felt the worm tears rushing down my face.

"What do you want?" I yelled. I heard the door of the stole beside me opened and then closed again. I heard someone climbing on the toilet sit and Frank's head showed up over the stole's wall.

"I'm really really really sorry, Shira." Frank said quietly.

"Why didn't he come to talk to me?" I asked him, trying to choke back tears. There were few minutes of silence.

"Who, Mikey? I don't know... You want me to call him?" Frank asked eventually. I nodded. Frank nodded back and left the stole.

"We're not okay..." I said. I heard Frank stopping.

"I thought so..." He whispered but I could still hear hi and then he left.

I sat there alone and finally stopped crying. I wiped my eyes and even thought of going to wash my face when I heard the door open.

"It's me Shira." Mikey said. I stayed quiet.

"We're over..." He said and I heard the door slamming a minute later.

I burst in tears again.

 

Rock Sound brings you an in-depth guide to My Chemical Romance. Part 1 – A - M

A is for…Acceptance
My Chemical Romance wouldn’t be here without it.
Frank Iero (guitar): “It’s what I felt about punk rock growing up. A show was a place where you could go and feel accepted for who you were. So when I started a band I wanted to create an environment where people could feel like there was somebody else out there who understood them and had their back no matter what.”
Gerard Way (vocals): “Acceptance is a huge part of this band. Punk rock accepted us as kids and in a sense saved our lives because of that. Punk shows gave us a place where we wouldn’t get shot or stabbed.”
Frank: “It’s about encouraging self-worth and self-respect.”

B is for…Bullet-proof vests
An indispensable part of the band’s onstage attire.
Gerard: “The bullet-proof vest is a metaphor. It symbolises the fact that this band feels indestructible.”
Frank: “It’s really based on the way we feel onstage. You get into a certain mindset where nothing really matters – you can’t get hurt and nothing fazes you. Together we feel unstoppable.”
Gerard: “It’s also about us relating to hip-hop artists. We come from the same world as a lot of them (Newark, New Jersey) and we relate to their drive and the way they don’t give a fuck about what anyone else thinks.”

C is for…Concept albums
Breakthrough album ‘Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge’ put a whole new spin on the concept record.
Mikey Way (bass): “The album started out as this fictional story but then kind of melded itself into our lives. It’s like a comic book story about a man who comes back from the dead to avenge himself. But on moving to LA we had so many experiences that without us knowing it the album became a fifty-fifty mix between the story and us.”

D is for…Disney World
MCR drummer Bob Bryar has a secret past…
Bob: “When I was in school in Florida I got a job at Disney World to earn extra money. I thought I was going to do something cool but when I went to my initiation day and opened up the packet it said I was working on The Little Mermaid theme show. I was so pissed. My first costume was white pants, a blue and white striped shirt and a sailor hat. Later I played drums for the Aladdin stage show. I finally quit because they yelled at me about my sideburns.”

E is for…Everyday living
It’s not half as glamorous as you think.
Gerard: “Wake up, walk around, look for a book store, look for a coffee shop, come back, start to focus, do some press, get ready to perform, reflect, cool down and go to bed. Then get up the next day and start again.”
Frank: “My everyday living consists of Epstein-Barr virus. It’s chronic fatigue syndrome. I got it from touring. It means my immune system is always really low, I always feel sick and I have to take a bunch of vitamins every day.”

F is for…Fans
Otherwise known as ‘The MCRmy’.
Frank: “We have the best fans ever. They’re brutal, crazy kids. Our fans love, they hate, sometimes they’re angry, sometimes they won’t give you a chance to go pee, but they give it their all. I think The MCRmy existed even before people used street teams.”
Mikey: “Those kids would photocopy fliers for our local shows and go to other Jersey shows and put them on cars, guerrilla-style. It all began with those kids.”

G is for…Great Britain
Much more than just a home from home.
Mikey: “In the States we had a problem with distribution on our first record (‘I Brought You My Bullets You Brought Me Your Love’). But in the UK it was released on a subsidiary of a major label, so you could buy it everywhere. It really took on a new life over here. We thought we were going to have to move here, like if we didn’t get big in America it wouldn’t be so bad. Even now we can play songs off the first album and you wouldn’t know the difference; kids here are into all of them.”

H is for…Harry Houdini
The legendary escape artist who’s a key inspiration for Gerard and co.
Gerard: “Houdini is very important to the first record. He’s also important to the next record because there’s a song about him and his wife on there, so it’s me going back to the story. For some reason he’s on the cover of ‘…Bullets’ hanging over New York City. Something about him was just so romantic and mysterious. There was something about the idea of an escape artist, about someone escaping what he came from and all the hurdles he had to overcome. It’s such a fantastic metaphor. To me, it really fitted in with our band, because this band is our escape.”

I is for…Irvine Welsh
The Trainspotting author is the reason they’re called My Chemical Romance.
Mikey: “I used to work in a book store and one day my manager brought over a stack of Irvine Welsh books. I was bored so I started flipping through a couple of them and reading the blurb on the back. A quote from a critic caught my eye. It said that Irvine Welsh’s books were ‘chemical romances’. I thought it would be a really good name for a band so I told Gerard and then we just added the ‘My’.”

J is for…Billie Joe Armstrong
The Green Day frontman taught Gerard Way everything he knows
Gerard: “Billie Joe was the first person to inspire me to pick up a guitar, learn how to play it and learn how to sing at the same time. He made it look so fun and effortless – there was no pretence about Billie. In the first band I ever started, Raygun Jones, I sang exactly like him because that was all I knew. With Billie, it’s all about the eyes. He couldn’t use his hands because he was playing guitar, so I learned to use my eyes to express things just like he did. He’s a huge inspiration.”

K is for…Killing the rock ‘n’ roll myth
Groupies, diva behaviour and over-indulgence are not where it’s at.
Frank: “We’ve mutilated, killed and disembowelled rock ‘n’ roll clichés! We’re not about anything that the “rock ‘n’ roll lifestyle” is about.”
Ray Toro (guitar): “This life is so crazy that the last thing you want to do after a show is party. We’re boring as hell!”
Gerard: “People definitely miss the Mötley Crüe antics but that’s not what we’re about because of the negative elements that go with it – mainly homophobia, racism and sexism. Punk rock and grunge made a difference but nu-metal set things back again because it was all, ‘Let’s beat the shit out of each other, get girls to show us their tits and fuck groupies’. So yet again, we’re trying to reverse that.”

L is for…Loved ones
Hit song ‘Helena’ was written for the Way brothers’ much-loved grandma
Mikey: “When we were growing up she taught us all of our extra-curricular activities, hobbies that kids our age and from our upbringing wouldn’t normally get to do. She taught Gerard how to sing and she taught us both how to draw and paint. We pulled some of our most important aspects from her. We didn’t see her for the last year of her life (the band were on tour). I didn’t even know she was sick. She was supposed to have some routine surgery. We came off tour for three days and she died then. It was so spur of the moment.”

M is for…Media hype
There’s no denying MCR are this year’s rock press darlings.
Ray: (Looking aghast) “I’ve never seen the words ‘media hype’. Are we over-exposed?”
Frank: “We’re in a lot of places. At first it was cool that my mom could buy 16 different magazines and we’d be in all of them. But then it got to the point where it’s just hype and bullshit. A lot of people are missing the point. It’s not about the hair and the make-up, it’s more about the message and keeping ourselves alive.”
Mikey: “It’s termed hype if you don’t live up to it, but our band lives up to it and then some. The reason we’re still in magazines is because anyone who tries to knock us down has no ground to stand on. That’s why we’re still the buzz band.”

 

Part 5- On My Own, Here We Go

"House meeting!" I yelled to the upper floors. I stood at the bottom of the staircase.

Chris and Jenny came downstairs and I lead them to the kitchen.

"So..." I said when they sat down "I think Molly is moving in with us..."

"What do you mean 'think'? Is she or isn't she?" Jenny asked. She never liked Molly too much. She saw her as a childish hyper girl.

"She's moving in with us..." I whispered.

"What? And you didn't think it will be nice to ask us first?" Jenny said furiously. She never yelled what made her anger scarier.

"I'm asking you now!" I said.

"Do we really have anything to say about it?" Jenny asked.

"Yes, if you wouldn't like her to live here she won't. Just listen to why she's coming." I said and sat down myself.

"Talk..." Chris said before Jenny could act.

"She wants to go to the dancing academy and her mother will let her only if she will live with us." I explained.

"And she'll just live here on our expanse?" Jenny asked.

"I guess not..."

"We should have house rules and give her terms for living here." Chris said. Jenny nodded.

I got up and took a pen and paper from the massage board by the fridge.

"So, she'll need to find a job." Jenny said. I wrote it down.

"And she'll have to sleep in the working room cause there is no other room." Chris said.

"And she has to help with the house work and not pass any of the house rules." I said.

"And the rules are?" Jenny asked. I took another piece of paper and wrote Rules on the top of it. We started inventing the rules and when we were finally done everybody got up.

"I'm gonna type it down on the computer and print it so it would look nice." Chris said. I couldn't help but writing side notes to myself on the paper.

"I'll go take everything I want out of the working room." Jenny said.

"So I'll go tell her." I said. We all left the kitchen and went our separate ways.

By evening the rules were hung in the middle of the massage board, all of our stuff that were in the working room were moved to our room, the computer was in the hallway and the working room was set for living there. Oh and my mom and Molly already knew everything they needed to know.

Chris, Jenny and I sat together next to the dining table and ate our very simple dinner- salad and toasts.

"Did you realize that we met Panic Yesterday?" Chris said. I looked at her and smiled.

“I guess I didn’t…” I mumbled.

“And we have a private gig.” Jenny said.

The rest of dinner we talked about Panic and then moved on to talk about college.

“Wouldn’t it be wiser for you to go to the music school outside town?” Jenny asked. There she goes again- Jenny and her practical things.

“I don’t know, I haven’t thought of that… probably is… maybe I should check it out.” I said.

“Maybe I should go to college too, it would make my parents thrilled.” Chris said.

And so, it was decided that the next day I’ll go check the music school, Jenny would check the art school and Chris would check the Las Vegas College. Las Vegas was a very artistic city.

In the morning we got up, ate breakfast together and left the house.

I took the bus out to the desert, to where the music school was. It was a 30 minutes drive.

When we finally got there I got off the bus and looked around. The place was empty in this time of the year so I just walked straight into the big castle that was the music school.

I had an interview and a tour around school and then they tested my musical skills. I listened to a song and then I was asked to play that song on the guitar and then the same song on the piano, which means transporting the chords into notes for the piano. I think I did fine… not best but I hope well enough…

I was back in Las Vegas in about 4 pm.

I walked in the downtown and passed by the music store I like and saw a ‘wanted’ sing, from the good kind of ‘wanted’ sings…

I got in and walked to the desk. Behind it stood a tall guy with wild, brown hair and a very wade back.

“Hello, I’m here about the job.” I said. The guy turned around. He had big green eyes and a beautiful smile.

“Yeah, how can I help you?” He asked.

“I’m looking for a job and I saw the ‘wanted’ sing you hung outside so I thought I should check it out.” I explained.

“Oh, okay. I’m Ben, I’m the manager, what’s your name?” He asked me.

“Jerry, nice to meet you.”

“Oh, cool! Ben and Jerry…” Ben laughed a nerdy laugh. I smiled. I like nerds… I’m kind of a nerd myself.

“So, how old are you?” he asked.

“I’m 17… 18 soon… not really… I’m 17.” I said. Ben smiled a huge smile.

“What do you know about music?”

“I listen to many kinds of music… I know a lot of new bands and I play piano and guitar.” I answered. Ben seemed impressed. Lucky me!

“So… do you have any problems with hours?” He asked.

“Right now I don’t have but I hope to start learning soon.” I said.

“Where will you learn?”

“In the music school named after Bob Dylan.” I said.

“I go there too! How nice…” Ben said. I smiled.

“Well, for now you’ll work in the mornings, 8-12 with me and when you’ll start learning we’ll see, maybe you’ll do the night shift instead of me.” Ben said. It took me a while to realize that I got the job. I looked at Ben with a questioning look and he nodded. I smiled a huge smile.

“You’re starting tomorrow.” Ben said.

“Okay, thanks Ben. See you tomorrow.” I said and left the store.

I skipped all the way home. Chris and Jenny set in the living room, watching TV.

“Guess who has a job?” I asked when I walked in.

“You?” Chris said.

“Yep, in my favorite music store.” I said and crushed on the couch next to them.

“I have a job too,” Jenny said, “in a kindergarten.”

“And you?” I asked Chris. Chris shook her head.

“And what about school, college?” I asked them.

“I think I got in to the college, at least that.” Chris said. She was clearly moody.

“I’m not sure about the art school, not that sure if I got in and not sure if I want to get in.” Jenny said.

“I think the music school is good, and I think I had a good interview and test… I hope.” I said.

Part 72

Frank's P.O.V

I hate this place! I really really hate this place! It's not like it's something new but lately it really got on my last nerve! I despise this stinking hospital!

I sat outside the ER and waited for Erik to get out of surgery. Apparently Erik's condition was much worse then we thought.

I already called everyone but Mikey. It still felt too awkward. I tried getting Shira on the phone but she didn't answer. After about 2 hours later the doctor got out of the ER.

"Excuse me, did you come with Mr. Bay?" He asked me.

"Yes." I said and got up.

"Are you part from his family?" He asked.

"Not exactly..." I mumbled.

"Do you know how could we talk to his parents?"

His mother is dead and his father is on away on a business trip."

"Any sibling?"

"I tried to reach his sister but she didn't answer."

"So none of his family is reachable? Are you his best friend?" The doctor asked.

"You can say that..."

"So that's his condition- Mr. Bay is okay now but he will have to stay here for a while."

"What? Why?" I asked. I wasn't really surprised but still, I wasn't very prepared either.

"He is in no condition to take care of himself. We will take care of him for a while and have him talk to a shrink and maybe a dietitian too." The doctor explained.

"Oh..."

"Does he live alone or with somebody?"

He lives with me."

"So just let his family know about everything." The doctor said.

"Can I see him?" I asked.

"Yes, he's resting in the ICU, room 11." The doctor said and went away.

I got up, walked to the ICU and searched for the right room. When I finally found it I knocked on the door and waited. After few minutes I realized that Erik's probably still under the drugs' influence. I opened the door slowly and walked in.

Erik slept in the big hospital bed. He seemed so calm now, it crept me out. Usually after such a great pain, when people are that calm- they're dead...

I made a decision. I took my phone out and dialed a number.

"Hello." Answered a distanced voice.

"Hi, I'm in the hospital. Could you come here? I could really use a talk with you." I whispered, trying my best not to cry.

"Yeah, I'll be right there."

 

Shira's P.O.V

I woke up with my entire body in awful pain. I tried to stretch but failed cause my body was too frozen.

I turned the car on and turned to heat on too. After that I turned the vishers. Apparently it was snowing at night.

I changed the car's gear and turned around. I drove off, not back to the town but to the highway. I didn't know where I want to go, I just wanted to go.

I made up my mind. I'm gonna drive until I'll break down!

At some point I decided to open my cell phone, I think it was about 4 hours of driving. I saw that Frank called me twice and Jaid called me 5 times. I stopped the car on the side of the road and called her back.

"Shira! Thank god! I started to get worried! Where are you?" Jaid answered and talked really really fast.

"I'm okay, I'm driving."

"Where? Why?"

"I don't know, I just fell like driving." I said.

"Oh... have heard?" Jaid asked. What? What happened?

"Heard what?"

"Erik is in the hospital again. Didn't Frank tell you?" I was shocked. What happened this time?!

"He tried to reach me." I said. I started turning around, in the middle of the highway.

"What's wrong with him?" I asked.

"I don't really know, you should talk with Frank." I drove like a maniac.

"Thanks for telling me, bye." I said and hanged up.

What the hell is up with my screwed-up brother? Why couldn't I answer the freaking phone?! Fuck it!

 

Bob's P.O.V

The next day I sat in my apartment all alone, all by myself and thought of everything that happened yesterday.

 

<Flashback>

 

"Bob? Is everything okay? Are you alright?" Dani asked me. I just stood there, staring at her in silence.

"Are you psycho?" I asked and then regretted it- it was rude and tactless of me.

"Oh... I guess... well... yeah..." she answered. I was shocked by her honesty. Dani looked down and moved uncomfortably.

"Why didn't you tell me?" I said louder.

"You know, it's not something that simple. You can't just come up to someone and say 'hey, I'm here cause I'm crazy, how are you today?' and  beside- I'm not." Dani said and looked at me.

"Oh really? Then why are you here?"

"Cause my stupid parents and the doctor that's fucking my stepmother decided that I'm nuts!" Dani yelled at me. I was stoned.

People came out of their rooms and looked at us. Dani used my confusment, caught my hand, pulled me into her room and shut the door.

I looked around me. Her room was so nice, brigt and everything was in solid colors.

When I heard Dani closed the door I turned to her.

"Wh- what?" I asked.

"What you heard! There is some doctor that's fucking my stepmother and I found out about it and started yelling at them and that gave them a reason to say I'm insane and get me in here and won't let anyone near me so I won't tell my dad." She explained.

I looked at her, trying not to let my jaw drop to the floor. Dani looked around her, she seemed very uncomfortable.

"So... you're not really crazy?" I asked. Dani looked at me with a furious look on her face. I smiled. She smiled back and sat on the bed. I sat next to her.

"I'm sorry I got mad..." I mumbled.

"I'm sorry I freaked out." Dani whispered.

"That's okay. I'm used to people freaking out on me." I said. Dani looked at me and giggled. She had a very amused look on her face. I smiled to her.

"How's your sister?" Dani asked.

"She's okay, don't worry- I didn't leave her alone, she's with my mom." I answered. Dani smiled and nodded in approval.

"So, you can't see anyone at all?" I asked her.

Dani looked sad.

"No, I haven't seen anyone from my family in 6 years, I have no idea what's up with them. The good thing is that one of the nurses, nurse Robinson lets me walk around the hospital."

"I'm sorry." I said as if it was my fault. There were few minutes of silence. Dani smiled at me so I smiled back.

"Rob, you are the closest thing I ever had for a friend." Dani said. The smile on her face was gone and so was mine.

"Why just close? I am your friend!" I said. Dani smiled a huge smiled and hugged me tightly. I gave her a squeezing hug.

Dani pulled away slowly and looked at me.

"Thanks Rob, you made me feel much better."

"You're welcome."

"You're the best Bob." Dani said and smiled. I smiled bach.

And then I did something I never thought I'll do- I kissed Dani passionately and pushed her on the bed.

I pulled back slowly and looked at Dani's face. I think it was the first time I saw Dani speechless.

"Wow..." Dani eventually whispered.

"Wow? That's something I've never heard." I said. Dani giggled.

"That was my first..." Dani's voice slowly faded. I smiled and kissed her again.

"So here- there's your second." I whispered in her ear.

"Bob, are we a couple now?" Dani asked.

"Yeah, I guess..."

"Oh... okay..." And Dani became Dani again.

"Okay..." I repeated.

 

<End flashback>

 

And so I had a new girl in my life, another girl. As if I didn't have enough.

Part 4- The Academy Is...

The next morning we got up early and drove Liz and Jim to the airport. We said our goodbyes and drove to eat breakfast in this cool place called Joey's Café. We ate breakfast and I read the newspaper.

Chris was practically sleep-walking. We got used to her addiction to coffee- without her coffee in the morning she couldn't function.

Jenny couldn't think about anything until she ate breakfast so she did now.

I had myself a simple chocolate-chip muffin and a cup of tea.

"I think I'm going to college." I said suddenly.

"Really? Why this sudden choice?" Jenny asked.

"I don't know, I just want to study more, I guess."

"Well, we'll have to find a job." Chris said. I could see her disappointed look when I nodded. She didn't like to work.

"Did you start looking for a job yet?" Jenny asked. She was always practical and kept Chris and me down to earth. Chris was the exact opposite- she was always "naturally high". She was a real day-dreamer. I think that her fantasies kept us hoping to achieve our greatest dreams.

"I'm looking for a job right now." I answered. I took a pen out of my backpack and circled some ads.

"Give me the paper when you're done with it, I'll look for some jobs for me too. Jenny said. We both looked at Chris. She looked down at her coffee and then whispered: "I'll look for a job too…" we smiled.

We kept talking for a while and then drove back to the apartment. Jenny went to her room to paint, Chris set in the working room and wrote in her notebook (Where she wrote her stories) and I sat in the studio, which was in the basement, and played on Jim's electric-blue electric Fender guitar. I like the sound of it, it made me calm and happy- like everything will be alright. I started playing some of the songs I knew. After a while I heard a knock on the door and Chris walked in.

"Hi, what are you playing?"  She asked and set on a chair in front of me.

"Trying to play Road Trippin, not really working so well today." I said and played a chord.

"How is writing going?" I asked and looked at her.

"Okay, I guess. I wanted to ask you if I could write a story about your childhood." Chris said and taped her fingers on the piano.

"Yeah, okay, I guess..." I said and started playing again, this time I played the song Cancer by My Chemical Romance. Chris started to ham the song and mumbled the words.

"Turn away," I sang quietly, "if you could get me a drink of water." I kept singing, moving from song to song. Chris wrote her stories in her notebook while I played.

We sat for maybe 3 hours. At some point my phone suddenly rang. It wasn't a number I knew. I answered it.

"Hello."

"Hi, is this Jerry?" asked a familiar voice. I tried my best not to scream my lungs out.

"Yes." I answered.

"Hi honey, it's Molly! What's up?" She asked in a happy tone. Molly was my cousin that used to live in Chicago but moved to Princeton, NJ. She was a year younger then me and a lot smaller then me physically. She was my favorite person from my big family. I was so happy to hear her voice after a long time.

"I'm okay."

"Who is it?" Chris asked me. "Molly I said without a sound. Chris nodded and smiled.

"This is gonna be long." She said and got up, "I'll be in my room." Chris walked upstairs and closed the door behind her.

"I heard you moved to Vegas." Molly said with her high voice.

"Yeah, our moms talked?" I asked.

"Yep, and guess what?"

"What?"

"Now that you and your friends live in Vegas my mom lets me go to the dancing academy in Vegas! It's gonna be so much fun! I'm gonna live with you!" I froze on the spot (I forgot to mention that I walk around in circled when I talk on the phone). Molly was fun and everything and I really liked her but live with her in the same house?! That was too much! She's hyper!

"Wha-what?" I asked.

"I can finally go to the dancing academy!" Molly screamed in my ear. Molly saw the movie 'Billy Elliot' when she was 9 years old. Since then she was dancing. First she did it cause she wanted to meet Jamie Bell, I can understand her now cause now he's hot but then he wasn't so I couldn't. Well, at the age of 11 she decided she wants to e a professional dancer and 2 years later she found out about the dancing academy in Las Vegas and decided she wants to go there. Until now her mom wouldn't let her cause she would be all alone but now that we're here...

"So you're moving in with us?" I asked shocked.

"Yes! That's gonna be so much fun!" Molly said.

"Oh... look Molly, I gotta call my mom so I need to hand up." I said, "Bye Molls!" I hanged up and crushed in the piano chair.

I really did need to talk to my mom.

It took me a while to get myself together and dial my mom's number.

"Hi sweetie! How are you spending your first day in Las Vegas, Nevada?" my mom had this geeky excitement over stupid things.

"It's my second day but so far I did pretty much nothing. Until now it was very good." I answered.

"And now it changed?"

"I heard Molly is moving in with us." I said, "Why did I hear it from her? Why didn't you tell me before you decided it?"

 

 "We didn't decide anything yet," I wanted to ask her something but she knew me too well, "Don't ask me why did she tell you that! She is a little girl and she got carried away." My mom talked very reasonably.

"Okay... so what's up with that?"

"She wants to go to the dancing academy, will you let her stay?" My moms tone made me realize that if I'll say no she'll be very disappointed.

"Yes... as long as she'll keep the rules..." I mumbled.

"Talk with your roommates. I'm very proud of you, bye." Mom said and hanged up.

Part 3- I Can't Take My Eyes Off of You

Mark led us back stage after the show. I was so nervous. Chris and Jenny smiled to each other. Chris was pretty excited too but she didn't show it like I did. Jenny was pretty calm but she was always the sane one.

"Let me come in before you, just wait here." Mark said and slipped through the door into the room.

I could here Mark's loud voice talking from inside the room.

"They are 18 years old, I think... big fans of yours..." Mark explained.

After few minutes Mark opened the door and called us in. I tried really hard not to scream my longs out so instead I fainted.

When I opened my eyes I saw Brendon's beautiful face looking at me. He had a worried look and that made me feel good.

"Are you... okay?" Ryan asked. He stood behind Brendon and looked at me.

I sat up. I was sitting on a couch in a small room full of instruments. I Could see that behind Ryan stood Jenny, Chris, Jon and Spencer.

"Yeah, sure. Please- get back to whatever you were doing before I passed out!" it took a while but eventually, after not few reassuring looks, everyone found something else to do then to stare at me- Ryan sat and talked with Jenny about Panic!'s lyrics, Jon talked with Chris about the Chicago Bears and Spencer slept in the side of the room.

I sat up and rubbed my head. Brendon sat next to me and smiled.

"Are you always this nervous or you're just very excited to see us? Or is it a medical problem?" Brendon's face turned concerned.

"I'm really excited to see you... you’re my favorite band!" I explained in excitement. I couldn't help but getting a little bit upset- I hate it when people make fun of me and I get annoyed really fast. Beside- I was really embarrassed- I can't believe I saw my favorite band and embarrassed myself by passing out!

"So... how old are you?" Brendon asked. He's talking to me! A real small-talk!

"17... 18 soon..."

"How soon?"

"In Christmas..." Brendon looked at me with an amused face, "I know, that's not that close but for me it's close..."

"That's okay, I know what you mean..." Brendon said and smiled an even bigger smile, if possible.

"So, you're living in Las Vegas?"

"No, well yes, we moved today from Chicago. My sister and her boyfriend are going to travel in South Africa so she lets us live in their place." I answered.

"You're planning to go to collage here?"

"I haven't thought of it yet, I guess. I have a whole month to thing about it."

"Well, the Nevada College is good, you should check it out if you want a college." Brendon said and looked aside.

"You know- I always thought you wouldn't be nice in person, you know, cause you're famous..."

"I hope I proved you wrong..." Brendon said, got up, took his guitar and sat back beside me.

"What is your favorite song?" he asked me.

"From your songs?"

"Yeah, alright..."

"I can't choose," Brendon smiled "it's either 'But It's Better If You Do' or 'There's A Good Reason These Tables Are Numbered'." I said.

Brendon nodded and started playing 'But It's Better If You Do'.

"Hi, how about a welcoming party?" Ryan asked when Brendon finished playing.

"You're probably busy..." Jenny said modestly. Brendon laughed.

"It's our time off at home right now, we wouldn't mind partying a little." Ryan said.

"Yeah, and beside- you're really nice! I wouldn't mind getting to know you better." Jon said. Chris grinned. She liked Jon.

"So, how do you wanna celebrate?" Brendon asked.

"What about a private concert?" Ryan said in excitement.

"Wow! Would you do that for us?" I asked.

"Yeah, why not?!" Brendon answered.

"Do you want us to get you something, to drink maybe?" Jon asked.

"Why not?!" Jenny said happily.

We kept talking about the private show for at least an hour.

"So... I guess we should get going..." Chris said when Mark opened the door and led Liz and Jim in.

"well, we'll see you..." Ryan said. Jenny and Chris smiled. I looked at Brendon's beautiful face. He smiled and walked to my direction. I blushed when I saw he walks to me so I looked away.

"Can I ask for a hug?" Brendon asked me. I looked up. He looked at me and smiled. I nodded.

Brendon wrapped his hands around me and held me tight, pulling me close to him. That made me feel awesome!

"So.. you wanna give us your address?" Ryan asked.

I wrote our address on a small piece of paper and gave it to him.

When we got into the car Chris looked at me with a huge smile.

"What?" I asked.

"Come on! Didn't you see what just happened?!" She asked. Jenny smiled too.

"yeah, we met Panic! and they're having us a welcoming-private-concert..." I said.

"Get real! Brendon Urie hugged you! It's not like you hugged him- he hugged you!" Chris said happily. I smiled to myself. She was right...

"I don't care if you'll invite 50 guys to a party at our place as long s there's no drugs, alcohol or sex involved." Here Jim goes again, didn't I tell you that?!

When we got back to the apartment we went to bed straight away and as soon as I lay down on my bed I fell asleep.